Broken Destiny {A 1D Fanfic}

Chapter 4~ New Family

I gasped!

Lily stepped aside and let the five boys from one direction come walking into her house! I immediately felt embarrassed, nervous and awkward. My shy side had just kicked in. Great... I looked down and all the boys gave Lily hugs before coming over to me.

"Boys, this is the famous Natasha, or Nat, Devine!" Liam introduced me, looking into my eyes with a smile.

"Hi love! I'm Louis Tomlinson!" I already knew that. I smiled at him and he pulled me into a welcoming hug. "I'm so sorry about everything." He whispered in my ear and I swallowed any emotions I had coming on. He released me and next Zayn approached me.

"Zayn Malik!" He said hugging me.

"Niall Horan!" He hugged me and I realized his accent was even cuter in person.

"Hello beautiful, i'm Harry Styles! Liam she's even prettier than you described her!" Harry called out. His smile showed his perfect dimples and I blushed, looking down. He pulled me into a bear hug and said loud enough for everyone to hear but still quiet enough where it appeared as though he hadn't intentionally done so. "I think my mate fancies you." When we pulled back I looked up shyly at Liam who was flushed himself. I heard the boys start laughing at Liam and Louis poked Harry as if to say that he shouldn't have done that.

Everyone had started their own conversations and Lily was serving drinks. I looked at Liam, he was the only one I hadn't correctly greeted. But I knew everyone made everything awkward for him so, feeling my shyness vanish I approached him. He looked up and I hugged him as he wrapped his arms around me.

"I missed you." I said at a whisper for only his ears to hear.

"I missed you, too." I pulled back smiling at him. "Hey while everyone is having fun. Can we talk?" I smiled and nodded and he led me out the door. Everyone else was distracted and I didn't think they noticed. Liam shut the door behind me and we walked down the sidewalk.

He took a deep breath before starting. "Natasha, I know you well enough, and from what i heard from Lily, to know that no matter how many times you say you are perfectly fine, you aren't." As he spoke I just stared at the sidewalk in front of me. "I know you feel it too. This connection we have. A mutual strong trust that neither of us can understand. So you can trust me. I am not going to hurt you." Suddenly my flip flops became very interesting. He sat down on the brick ledge by the back porch of Lily's house. I guessed I had no choice but to join him. Liam looked at me as if he was waiting for me to say something. "Say something... please anything..." He said sounding weak and worn out. I felt myself get choked up. Even to him, the idea of sharing my feelings was absurd and unknown to me.

I clenched my jaw and swallowed looking at my legs in front of me trying to remain composed.

"What do you want me to say?" I said my voice cracking. I could feel the hot tears prickling and starting to form in my eyes. He grabbed my hand and put his other hand under my chin gently guiding it up so i had to look in his eyes.

"I want you to look me in the eyes and tell you exactly how you feel. For once I would like you to stop pretending you are alright and tell me that that's not the case. I want you to be  honest with me, open up to me. I want to be there for you to help you. But I need to know how you feel!" I felt my jaw clench and the anger build inside of me. I didn't know how to handle this situation.

"Tell you how I feel?!" I said, the feeling draining from me all at once with a large exhale as I saw the sadness and purity in his expression. I dropped my eye sight to my knees. "I ..." I hesitated shaking my head and swallowing. "It feels like crap." I felt my emotions explode all and once and I found myself not being able to stop, tears draining down my face. "I feel awful. I haven't ever felt good. My mom died of cancer and I miss her all day, every day. My dad beat me everyday. I don't even know why. What did I do wrong?! Was I in his life?! My dad tried to murder me! My own father! Did he just want me gone?! Would it be easier for him if I was?! The only family I have is Lily and her parents! And I don't even know if I have a future. I don't even know what to make of myself. Sometimes I just wonder if I don't belong here. And even though I know he is supposedly locked up... I can still hear him laugh. I still flinch when I make any mistake. I don't know why... But I'm so afraid he is going to be there when I turn around and... and I don't know if I can handle that. I'm scared, I'm hurt and I just want to have a normal life." I found myself panting the tears still coming. I felt ashamed and embarrassed for sharing that. Tap tap tap went my index finger on my leg. Liam pulled me into a hug and surrounded me with his arms. Like a shield, I instantly felt protected. I buried myself in his chest and he squeezed me tighter.