Amaya's Amaranth (Wattys2014)

Chapter 16: Valentine's Day

Thank you @QuillAsh for helping me and pointing out all those mistakes and those lovely comments. :)

He smiles at me, and I am

suddenly seventeen again - the year I realize that love doesn't follow the rules, the year I understood thatnothing is worth having so much as something unattainable

                -Jodi Picoult

Dear Genova,

It has been quite some time and I have found myself falling harder and harder for him. What am I supposed to do? His laugh rings bells in my heart, his single touch sends waves throughout my body. The way his eyes sparkle when he smiles makes my heart melt. How can I get rid of this unknown feeling?

I don't know what Olivia thinks. She doesn't talk about it and neither do I. He has captured my poor little heart. What am I supposed to do?

I don't wanna get rid of this feeling. It's too good and the best I have had in years. After all those betrayals and heart breaks, this feeling has acted like a paradise land for me.

Today is Valentine's day and I don't know why I feel so lonely all on a sudden. I mean, I have passed so many Valentine's days feeling glad that I was single and celebrating my single life, but all on a sudden, I wish I had a date with Sky today.

I suddenly wish he would give me a rose today again. But not as a token of friendship but as a token of love.

I suddenly wish he would look me in the eyes and tell me he needs me.

I suddenly wish he was here right now.

I suddenly wish my life was normal.

I sighed and saved the entry. It was a comfortable weather, not too cold, not too hot.

Perfect for a day at the beach.

Dhaka didn't have a beach. I had once visited Cox's Bazar and loved the beach. The sunset and sunrise were so pretty. Especially the sunset. It was magical!

I took the CDs Sky had given me and took them up. He had asked me to go up a bit early, I had no idea why.

Suddenly there was rumbling and the smell of green was coming.

I deeply inhaled the smell of the rain. And tragically, it made me feel sadder. And more lonely. I felt tears sting behind my eyes and all I wanted then was to run up to Sky and tell him everything.

But I feared that my confession would create an awkward distance between us. And then I couldn't imagine losing him. At least I would have the satisfaction of having him as a friend.

I went up, Bianca eyeing me suspiciously.

" Where you going? " she asked.

" Nowhere, " I replied and headed out.

I skipped and went up, knowing Bianca was probably peeking through the peep hole. But hopefully, she had someplace else to be soon.

" Thanks for the CDs, " I said sitting down. The cool wind blowing making my insides swirl.

" Mm-hmm, " he replied.

I looked up, the sky overcast with clouds. I couldn't find Niall and that upset me so much.