Amaya's Amaranth (Wattys2014)

Chapter 20: Words Said

The best and most beautiful things in the world cannot be seen or even touched - they must be felt with the heart.

                            -Helen Keller

I had gone down to meet Annelise. It had become almost a regular thing for me. A thing I loved. She came running up to me and I bent down, picking her up.

" And how is my princess today? "

She laughed and said, " Amaa!"

" It's Amaya you little doll, " I said pinching her nose. She giggled and planted a kiss on my cheeks. I returned her favor by doing the same. She had learnt to somewhat say my name and I had a feeling Sky was behind all that. Because I didn't really try to make her pronounce my name. She was gonna have a hard time to pronounce hers so I started on that.

" Now, what is my princess' name? " I ask pouting.

" Anees, " she said in an over excited tone. Well, it was a good start. I clapped making her clap in return.

" Amaya dear, you have no idea how long she had been waiting for you, " aunty came and said to me.

" My princess has no idea how much I crave for this time of the day to come, " I said smiling.

" You get along really well. She loves you and Sky so much that sometimes it makes me jealous! " she laughed.

I looked at her. She was free with us and she looked young and was so beautiful despite her having a son like Sky. She had her hair tied behind in a bun and I could bet anything that Sky had her hair. But her eyes were more of hazel-nut color compared to Sky's dark ones.

" Aunty, I am jealous of you because you get to live every moment with this princess and I get just an hour or so, " I smiled.

" You do know you are welcome any time dear. "

I felt light tugging at my dupatta and saw Annelise holding her tea-cup out with a frown in her face. I smiled and sat down to play tea-party. Wow, this family was having me get attached to them so fast.

And Sky. The thought of him sent Africa erupting in my stomach. Everyday I would go so close to him. He was the first and last thing on my mind everyday.

His smile.

His eyes.

His laugh.

His voice.

I felt an unknown feeling take over me. I felt my whole body cool down as if I was standing in the rain. Then suddenly my eyes began to sting and tears threatened to escape. This emotional roller coaster was making me crazy. I was with Sky. Why was I not happy?

Duh, because you haven't confessed your love for him,baby sis.

It was true. I hadn't. The ' L ' word was so scary and had an adverse affect on me. Whenever I said that to someone, my relation with them turned bitter after a few days. I would either end up fighting with them or they would end up breaking me. I never told that to my mom or Olivia or Sky or even Annelise. I had told it to Bianca and look where it landed me. It's not like I judged it just by the one example. I loved Niall. And where did that end him?

I had wanted to start a new relation, an improved one with a person and all I got was a dark shocking secret which made me feel ashamed to be related to the person. 

I was confused and scared. I watched Annelise play with the tea-set we had gotten her and wished life was as simple. But oh well. Better make best use of it till I can, I thought.