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Today Sadie invited me to school.
I was sort of nervous but at the same time I was curious at how the pupils will react. They'll all probably think I'm a new student. Sadie, Gaten, Caleb, and Finn all went to a catholic school. Even though Caleb and Finn never went to class.
I sat at the back of Sadie's math class. The teacher was boring. He looked boring, he talked boring, and his attitude was fucking boring. I slumped down in my seat, looking around the room. I noticed a poster on the bulletin board, of a hair spray advertisement. I grinned as an idea shot into my head. I should die my hair pink. Noah said to always take risks, and come out of your comfort zone. I think this'll be out of my comfort zone for sure. "Hey, did you hear what happened to Sadie?" I heard a few girls whisper in the back corner. I turned my head, crossing my arms and frowned. "Yeah she got a boob job!" They all giggled quietly. I looked over at Sadie, she has a frown on her face as she looked back at me with embarrassment. "Ladies!" The teacher called out. The girls stopped laughing and stared back at the board.
"Bitches."
I cussed under my breath.
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"Why do they do that to you?" I caught up with the red head as the bell rang. "It's fine," she brushed it off. "really."
"Doesn't that make you mad?" I asked. "No." She plastered a fake smile onto her mouth. She then turned on her heel, and continued to walk. I ran up to her again. "Sadie wait," I said. "Why don't you punch them in the boob or something?" I asked her. "Why the hell would I do that?" She asked. "Girls don't have balls like guys, so boobs are the only target option!" I say out of breath. Sadie giggled, but her smile soon faded. "Listen, Millie, it really doesn't matter. Those girls say that to everyone." Sadie explained.
I felt really bad for Sadie. She's such an amazing person, and it makes me pissed off that those bitches call her those names.
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Sadie and I walked home together. "Well, did you enjoy that prison we call school?" She teased. "It was, eventful, in some ways." I nod. "How are things with you and Caleb?" I wiggle my eyebrows cheekily at her, making her expression change into a frown. "What's wrong?" I hold her shoulder as we stopped. "I need to tell you something.." she played with the grass under her shoe shyly. "But it can w-wait.." she smiled. I nod calmly.
"Is Noah home?" I asked. "Probably." She opened the door, allowing me in after her. I felt like I was safe here. Like I was home. "Hey, Finn's having this pool party thing, do you wanna go?" Sadie asked me. "Oh, he already told me about that." I said. "What when?" Sadie raised an eyebrow. "When I dropped my bananas!" I say. "What..?" Sadie squinted in confusion. I sighed, "never mind."
We arrived at Finn's house, and we could already hear people screaming and laughing out back. "Stay calm." I mumbled. "I am calm." Sadie said. "I was talking to myself.." I say awkwardly. The door finally opened, revealing Finn in his swim shorts, and a beer in hand. "Hello ladies." He grinned.
Sadie and I changed in the bathroom. "Are you even gonna go swimming?" I asked. "I dunno." She shrugged, putting on her water proof mascara. "When is the, best time to have sex?" I asked the girl. She looked at me through the mirror. "What?" "Just wondering." I blurted out. "Oh well, my mom told me about our age, but not when you're fifty." She put the cap on the mascara stick. "Oh." I say in confusion as we walked out to the back yard. People were already in the pool, and I watched as Finn through a girl I've never seen before, into the water making a huge splash. Gaten waved at us as he ate a hotdog.
We danced around with cups in the air, laughing and singing along to the music. I felt happy for the first time in a long time. Noah refused to come because he said he was on his "man period". Whatever the hell that is. He says he has mood swings and just wanted to sleep. The weird thing was, I understood him.
Sadie and I saw Finn jump into the pool, making me laugh. "Hey Sads," Gaten came over and greeted us. "Millie." He bowed his head a little. "How's it going with the police thing?" He asked. "It's going." I sighed. "I'm gonna go get some chocolate pudding, Finn says there's always some in the fridge!" He rubbed his hands together, making me giggle. I felt a pair of cold hands touch my back suddenly, making my breath hitch. I was then being pushed into the cold water of the blue pool. I let out a scream as I surfaced to the water, realizing that Finn had pushed me into the water. Sadie stood there and laughed her ass off at me. "Sadie Sink I'm going to throttle you!" I struggled to swim over to her. Gaten then kicked her butt, making her scream, pushing her in along with Gaten, and lastly Finn. We all laughed as we splashed each other and played volleyball in the pool until about two in the morning when the neighbors complained.
Finn got us both towels, as we sat in his kitchen, drinking a ginger ale. "Mills," She said, turning to face me. "What?" I asked her. "Nothing.. I'm just glad I met you." She smiled. Sadie went to the bathroom, giving me a wink as usual. Finn eyed me from afar, I only noticed later on when his eyes told me to follow him upstairs. I followed for some reason. I was half way up the carpeted steps when I heard a small voice below.
"Mills?"
It was Sadie.
I looked back down at her, the towel still wrapped around her. "Where'r you going?" She looked concerned. "I'm just going to put on some dry things," I said softly. "Mills, I thought we were going to see that movie once we got home-" I cut her off. I felt sort of bad. "Sads, I'll just be a minute." I stared at her. I then turn, following Finn up the steps. His bedroom was nice. It had posters everywhere, and a huge framed picture of him and his dad at the 1992 Nirvana concert. "Woah." I smiled. He just chuckled, taking off his shirt to change. "Here," he tossed me his sweatshirt. I don't really know why, but I felt weird around this boy. I took my shirt off to change, when Finn turned. We locked eyes. He stared at my skinny body, and my laced bra as I stood there awkwardly. He then practically ran over to me, cupping my face, and kissing me. I didn't know what was happening but I just went along with it. I held his face back as he kissed me hard. Most of it was just a happy blur after that.
Update: I just lost my virginity to Finn Wolfhard. Holy fucking shit.
I left his bedroom at about five in the morning. I didn't want to wake him up. He looked so cute when he was snoring. I pulled his sweatshirt over my head, and quietly walked home in bare feet.
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6:23 am.
I had a seizure last night. Well, I only got home around five thirty, but I didn't really sleep at all. Noah says I almost choked on my vomit, which isn't normal for me since I never throw up when I'm having an episode. I actually swallowed my pills this time, and didn't pretend to take them and throw them away.
"How are you feeling?" Noah asked me as I poured him a cup of orange juice. "Fine." I smiled softly. Sadie walked into the kitchen. Her red hair was a mess and she was wearing a bra and PJ shorts. "Morning." She rubbed her eyes. "Rough night?" Noah teased. Sadie gave the boy a fake slap on the arm. "Shut up." She smirked. "Mills, where were you last night?" The girl asked, leaning against the kitchen counter. "I um.." I mumbled. "I- " I stuttered some more as Noah looked at me in confusion, when I couldn't take it anymore.
"Okay!" I through my head back.
"I slept at Finn's." I sighed.
Noah's eyes almost fell out of his head at my words, while Sadie shook it off. "You had sex?" Noah sounded like it was the end of the world. "I'm sorry," I looked at Sadie. "Noah it's fine. My doctor says I shouldn't have sex so often, but I do it anyways!" Sadie smiles, making Noah turn to her with an 'Are you crazy' sort of look. "You should really listen to your doctor.." Noah said. In the end Sadie and I burst out into an insane fit of laughter once Noah left the room in a rage.
Sadie sat me down on the living room couch as we watched TV. "So How was it..?" She was eager to hear what I had to say. "Well, at first I really wanted it but, I've realized that I like using condoms way better." I nodded, making Sadie laugh, but her face soon changed into a pout. "What's wrong?" I held her hands in mine, feeling the coldness of her rings against my skin. "I need to tell you something, I've never told anyone.." she stared into my eyes. I nod. "I'm," she stopped herself. "No I can't." She then turned away, letting go of my hands. "Sadie, you can talk to me." I say, grabbing her wrist and pulling her back down into the couch. "Okay, here it goes.." she took a deep breath.
"I'm lesbian." She bit her lip.
I sat there in complete shock.
"I didn't know who else to tell, and my mom not being around, I didn't know what to do and -" I cut her off by hugging her so tight that we both fell back. "I'm so proud of you Sads!" I squealed. We soon fell onto the floor, not letting go of each other. We landed on the hardwood floor with a thud.
"Ow! That was my fucking boob!" Sadie said in a raspy voice, making my giggle.
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