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Sadie made me an appointment to see the doctor on Monday.
I really didn't want to. Why do I even need to go to the doctor? I'm not ill, and I've stopped throwing up at least.
I saw Finn last night, and I stayed over at his place again while his parents were out.
"Finn," I say quietly. "Yeah?" He replied. He leaned up against his head board, without a shirt on. "What is it?" He smirked. "Nothing, it's nothing." I say. "No what is it?" He asked. "I just,"
I truly was going to admit to Finn that I knew his secret; that he was bisexual, but I switched gears right away. I chickened out, changing the subject. "I'm glad I met you." I smiled. Finn kissed my collar bone as I lay beside him. He flipped the page. We stayed silent for a while. I liked quiet. Noah says that I'm the loudest girl on earth, but in a good way.. whatever that means..
"I didn't lose my virginity to you," He sighed deeply. I furrowed my eyebrows. What??
"Wait.. what?" I asked, concerned.
"I lost my virginity to Sadie Sink."
He almost sounded like he didn't give a damn about me. Like he didn't care. Like he was totally oblivious to the fact that I was his girlfriend.. or so I assumed!
Sadie fucking Sink.
I grimaced.
It made me sick to think that Sadie, my best friend had sex with Finn!? I didn't know what to think. I crawled up to front of the bed's edge, putting my hands in my hair. "Sadie Sink? Really Finn?" I scoffed. "what..?" He shrugged, continuing to read his book. "You act like you don't care." I say. "I do," he sat beside me. "do you still love me..?" He shook his curls out of his eyes. My lip quivered. What do I say? I took his cold hands, which were rough like sand paper. "I love you to the moon and back." I took a breath. Finn hugged me tight. He's never done that before. "I'm writing a song about you." He places the white stick in his mouth, but never lit it.
Unusual...
"Really?" I smiled sweetly. "Yup." He popped the P. "Can I show you what I have so far?" He grabbed his light brown guitar. I was still mad at him, but how could you resist that face? Jesus this boy was getting the best of me.
I nodded, sitting cross legged on the bed, cupping my hands and listening carefully.
He strummed the strings at the start, soon starting to sing softly.
"The strangers in this town," he began.
"they raise you up, just to cut you down."
His fingers glided along the strings like a boat on the ocean. I loved it.
"I was here,"
"gettin' drunk and stoned!"
"Then you came along.."
"and all of that changed.."
"Hey! I like that you're broken, broken like me. Maybe that makes me a fool." He sang. "I like that you're lonely, lonely like me. Maybe that makes me a fool,"
"I used to watch you at the bar,"
"now I watch ya daily," He smiled. "Well I must, admit it, I would marry you in an instant." He finished with a single strum once again across the strings, making them wiggle. I clapped and squealed as I kissed his lips happily. "That's all I got." He chuckled. "Wanna smoke?" He asked. I nodded, following him outside. It was raining, I used to hate rain.
But now, I've grown to love it.
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OOF THIS CHAPTER IS LIKE 600 WORDS IM SO SORRY. I've been inactive for a while, I guess you could say... and I'm going into the 10th grade, so I've been studying a lot so far this summer. But, it's good to be back kiddos :)
