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Update: I've decided to shut myself out from the world today, with everything that's happened.
"I don't know how to talk to you."
I say quietly as I lay in Finn's bed with him. I slept at his house last night. I wanted to get away. Finn was the only one who understood me, really. "What?" He asked quietly, reading his book. Finn told me he loves books, but he only enjoys it when he's smoking with a good book. "Sorry." I say quietly, as I always do. Finn flipped the page. "I need to tell you something." I sat up, shifting to the edge of the bed. Finn looked up at me. I slouched over, fiddling with my fingers. "Yesterday." I began. "something happened," I found it hard to speak. "I was.." I stuttered. Finn scooted over to the edge of the bed, sitting beside me. I looked into his eyes, his curls covering them slightly. "I can't say it," I put my face in my hands. Finn lay down on his back. "Just tell me Mills." He said. He almost sounded like he didn't care. "I can't." I stood up, my feet were cold against the floor. I was only in my underwear and bra, Finn had no shirt on either. "Why not?" He sat up again. "Because I.. I just can't." I mumbled. "Why can't you just tell me?" Finn placed a hand on my wrist, making me stand up.
"I was raped!"
I blurted out.
Finn sat there, motionless. "Are you happy now?" My breath hitched. Finn swallowed hard. He then walked up to me, pulling me into a warm hug. "Who the fuck did this. I'll beat his fucking ass before the sun comes up." Finn gritted his teeth. "They haven't found who yet." I lowered my head, tucking a stand of hair behind my ear. "h-hold me.." I mumbled. "Please." My lip quivered as I was on the verge of having a mental breakdown. Finn hugged me tighter this time. "I love you so fucking much." He Shut his eyes as he lay his chin on my shoulder. I then kissed his cheek softly, making him smile, and take off his baseball cap. He kissed me back, starting out slow, but soon turning a corner in seconds. Finn lay me down on the bed carefully as he kissed my forehead. I kissed his neck as he kissed mine, but my heart sank at a sudden urge to stop. "Finn," I whispered as he kissed my neck roughly, and I'm pretty sure I had a hickey. Boy Noah's gonna be pissed. "I'm sorry." I sit up, making Finn frown as I quietly picked up my sweatshirt and shorts. "Its not the right time," I say softly. "When can I see you again?" He asks. "I'll call you." I smiled weakly, hopping out of his bedroom window and onto the grass below like usual. As I passed the main floor window from outside, I saw Finn's father, sleeping on the couch in front of the TV. It made me sad to think that he had lung cancer.
I sat on Finn's front lawn, picking blades of grass as I waited for Sadie to come pick me up. She pulled up onto the curb, making me laugh at her horrible parking job. I plop into the front seat, my expression changing as I remembered what had happened only just yesterday to me. Sadie looked horrible.
"Sadie?" I asked, looking hard at the redhead as her lip quivered. She started to sob into my shirt. "What's wrong?" I cooed, stroking her ginger coloured hair. "Was it those girls?" I asked, concerned. She just nodded. I tried to make the poor girl feel better. "Hey, do you wanna go get drunk?" I ask with honesty. Sadie looked up at me as tears streamed down her face. She nodded, "Yeah." She sniffled.
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11:04 pm.
Sadie and I got home after all night at the pub in town. I hiccuped as she giggled trying to shut the front door.
