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Update: I don't know what to do..
I didn't speak to anyone for three days. Not even Daniel. I haven't seen Noah in what seems like ages, and Sadie had work at the Pub, washing dishes until the late hours, so I never saw her either. I sat on the couch, only in my underwear, and a glass of ginger ale in hand. I walked into the bathroom, splashing water onto my face and rubbing my eyes. There were grey and purple bags under my bottom eyelids, and my lips were white as a sheet.
There was a sudden knock at the door.
"Shit!" I jumped in surprise.
I didn't care if I answered the door in my underwear, I really didn't. I swung it open groggily, letting the cool air enter the house. "C-Caleb?" I cleared my throat. I came face to face with him, as his jean jacket was soaked from the rain.
"What do you want." I growled. "I wanted to a- apologize. To Sadie." He said over the pounding rain. "She's at work right now." I say quietly. I soon decided to let him inside, shutting the door behind him.
We sat on the couch, side by side, not staring or talking to each other at all. Caleb slouched over, laying his elbows on his knees, while I just sat nicely, with my hands tucked under my thighs. "I-I'm sorry," I looked at him. "I really am." I wanted to forgive the boy, but I thought of Sadie. I knew she wouldn't give in. "And I'm sorry for calling you a skank, and your friend — Noah? Was it..?" He arched his eyebrows. "Yes." I say softly. We talked for about half an hour or so, mostly all of Caleb constantly apologizing every five seconds and me excepting it. The one thing he didn't know, was that there was a 95% chance that I was pregnant. He didn't know that I was raped, or beat by my father, or is on a missing persons case from the police. I felt the need to tell him, but I never ended up doing so.
Caleb finally left, as Sadie was walking into the driveway, he stopped his car to talk to her. She started yelling at him. I watched from the windowsill, not knowing what to do. I couldn't make out what they were saying to each other. Sadie came storming inside, not bothering to shut the door. She passed Noah on the way to her bedroom. "Sadie!" I called after her. "I don't wanna talk to anyone anymore!" She shouted. "Calm your tits," Noah rolled his eyes at her, eating a sand which. "Shut up Noah!" I argued. "You won't get a job with all that shut in your face!" Sadie slammed her door. It was honestly kind of hilarious to watch, but I kept my laughter inside. "What's up with her?" Noah frowned. "I dunno, she's fighting with Caleb." I looked out the window again. He was gone.
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12:04 am.
I can't sleep.
I took my sleeping pills, but nothing was working. I thought of all the things that had happened to me since I've arrived in New Jersey. Some memories were good, some were bad. But I knew I had to keep my head up. I couldn't let the anxiety and pressure get to me.
I was still mad at Sadie. First of all, she drags me to the doctor like an over protective mother, and next, I find out that she used to have sex with Finn.
I heard a small knock on my door, the light from outside soon beaming in front he hallway. I squinted, soon seeing Noah standing in the door way. "Mills," He whispered. "Are you awake?" "Well now I am!" I rubbed my eyes. "Sorry," he shut the door behind him. "Can I sleep-" I cut him off. "Huh?" I whispered back. "Jesus Christ Millie are you deaf?" Noah stopped whispering. "Can I sleep with you tonight?" He ran his hand through his hair. "Yeah sure," I shrugged, making room for him to lay next to me. "just make sure when you start mastrubating you don't wet the bed." I joked, making Noah cough on his own spit. "Millie! Gross!" He slapped my butt. "I don't do that!"
I giggled intensely at him as he put his head on the pillow next to mine. It was quiet for a few seconds until Noah started blabbering on again.
"Do you miss it?" He asked quietly. "Hm?" I hummed. "Home.." he added. I shifted my body closer to his, facing him. "Yeah. What about you?" I whispered. "I miss my own bed. And my stupid wall covered in pictures of us at Disney Land." He chuckled, making me smile. "dad's having a funeral tomorrow." I mumbled, making Noah's head shoot my way. "What?" He stuttered. "Are you gonna go?" He asked. I stayed silent. I didn't know if I should go or not. I didn't want to go back to Virginia. "I don't know." I whispered.
"You know, for someone who's been through so much.. you really are amazing." He complimented me. "Eh." I shrugged. "Don't worry, when all of this is over, we will be okay." I sighed, shifting back to look at the ceiling. "What did the doctor say?" Noah asked again. I bit my lip, "There's a 95% chance that I am pregnant," I whispered in a saddened tone as my lower lip quivered. Noah sat up, looking down at me. "We're gonna get through this Millie," he held my hand. "You're not in this fight alone." He lay back down, turning off the lamp.
Well shit.
I thought to myself.
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Today I went back to the doctor with Noah and Gaten as support. Sadie had work from six in the morning till four in the afternoon, I hadn't seen her since Monday.
I lay down on the cold ex ray table, pulling my shirt up, exposing my stomach. My heart was thumping as the nurse placed the light over me, along with this big machine. "Just stay still honey," she called from the computer. I shut my eyes.
Click!
The noise was loud in my ears as the lady came in front of me You're all done!" She said nicely, helping me sit up. "Thank you." I say to the doctor as he nodded back to me in response. I used Gaten's credit card to pay for my appointment, and sat in the back seat of Gaten's car while Noah drove.
We went to McDonald's for a bite to eat.
I didn't eat.
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I got a series of phone calls from Finn. I didn't answer. It was obvious that it was him calling, because it was about every five minutes. "Can you just answer the god damn phone Millie!" Sadie called. "No!" I shouted back. "Why?" She shouted back. "Because!" I screamed. "Because why?" She stood on the stair case. "Because its Finn!" I called. "Why can't you answer. I thought you guys were a thing." She walked into the kitchen. I then remembered I didn't tell Sadie that I knew she lost her virginity to Finn. I gulped, trying to think of something to say. "Because.. I, I know that he's planning me a surprise birthday party!" I nodded quickly.
Wow that worked..
"Ohhh," Sadie said slowly. "I gotta go! I'm already late!" She spun around, her red hair flying as she did so.
I took a deep breath of relief and continued to sketch in my book with a pen, because Eliot ate all of my pencils. I was drawing my feelings. I did this often. But I never showed anyone except Noah. I took a picture of it, keeping it for later. I wanted to take as much pictures as I could for future memories to look back on when I'm.. I don't know.. twenty five.
The camera clicked.
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