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Update: I'm sad.
Sadie left an hour later, and I already missed her. I had Noah though, so it wasn't all that bad.
"So, I guess we're back to square one huh?" Noah sat on his hands. I just nodded in deep thought. "Yeah." I sighed. "Are you gonna see him again?" Noah asked. "What?" I took my pants off, changing for a shower. "Finn, are you gonna see him?" The boy asked again. "Of course." I say, unclipping my bra. I stepped into the bathroom. "So how many times have you guys done it?" Noah wiggles his eyebrows cheekily, making me roll my eyes. "It was a one time-" Noah smirked slyly. "Five time thing." I corrected myself. "Holy shit!" Noah squealed, making me middle finger him, stepping into the shower.
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Noah and I watched constant movies like Star Trek, Harry Potter, and The Breakfast Club.
"Hey," I say out loud. "Hey." Noah said back in response. "Sadie invited me to prom." I say sweetly. "Oh." Noah said simply. "Are you gonna go?" He shifted his head to me. "I dunno," I shrugged, playing with my toe nail. "besides, it's a while away." I say, making Noah nod. We were quiet for a while after that conversation. We just lay in silence on the bed until we fell asleep.
I thought of Finn. A lot. More than usual. I loved him so much, and I wanted to see him so bad, but I knew his mother with murder me. I hadn't seen him in a few days. I missed him so much, Jesus.
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3:07 am.
I shot up in bed. I was drenched in sweat, and I breathed heavily. I was surprised that I hadn't woken Noah up, he was sound asleep. I started to sob uncontrollably, which I've never really experienced before. I gulped and gagged a little, before I squeezed the bed sheets, controlling my body. I let out a huge shaky breath, calming my body down finally. I snuck out of bed, grabbing my vans, slipping them on. A ring tone startled me, making me jump. I quickly flipped open my cellphone, reading the number. It was Finn. "Shit." I whispered. I answered it outside of the front door of our hotel room. "Finn?" I whispered. I heard crying in the background. "Finn what's wrong?" I said quietly. "F-Fuck.." he sobbed. His voice sounded shaky. I was scared for him. What do I do? I thought in panic. I grabbed the car keys, and ran out of the hotel into the car.
I drove for about fifteen minutes in the dark. It wasn't all that scary. I used to be afraid of the dark as a little kid.
I pulled over the curb in front of Finn's house. I ran up to the garbage bins, climbing up to his window. My lips were chapped as I panted, taping on his window. He lay on his bed, crying so hard I saw his ribs through his thin skin. I banged harder on the window. "Finn!" I called. He finally looked up at me slowly. His eyes were blood shot, and his hair was sticking to his forehead from sweat.
He didn't open it.
I tried to pry it open with my hands. I managed to do it, breaking a nail but I didn't care. I needed to get to this poor boy, not only for my sake but for his.
I managed to crawl through the window, my bare legs falling from behind me. I sort of tripped and lost my balance, tumbling to the carpeted floor with a light thud. I scoffed in pain at my right thigh. It was leaking out a drip of blood, but I didn't care. I stood up, so did Finn. We were across the room, facing each other now. I placed my left hand around my lower right elbow, standing there helplessly. Finn's breath hitched as his eye lids drooped a little, and his cigarette fell to the floor. He basically ran into my arms, making me stumble back a bit. I held his body tightly up against mine. He sobbed quietly into my shoulder. I'm pretty sure there was snot all over my hoodie but it's okay.. Noah's doing the laundry anyways.
Finn held my face in his hands. They were shaking horribly. I took them in my own, as Finn kissed me roughly. "I-I missed y-you," He hiccuped. "I missed you too curly." I hugged his chest. Finn picked me up in his arms, placing me on his bed, and kissing me all over. It was almost like Finn was a drug that I was addicted to, and I couldn't not have him. The strange thing was, he was still crying softly as we were practically on top of each other making out viciously. Finn finally stopped, towering over me. He was about to speak, but no words escaped his mouth, he just sat on the edge of the bed. "What's wrong?" I whispered into his ear. "I h-have to leave you," he cried. "What..?" I say softly. "My parents, they're sending me away for my fucking health an-and I don't wanna l-leave.." He hiccuped and sobbed and hiccuped some more. I hugged him tight once again. I sat beside him, copying his body position. I stood up, starting to cry myself. I wiped my eyes and turned back to Finn, walking over to him and placing my chin on his head. He wrapped his arms around me, pulling me back on top of him.
(THIS IS GETIN SPICYYYY ...OK BYE.)
We lay together for the rest of the night. I fell asleep while playing with Finn's fingers.
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6:00 am.
It was still sort of dark outside, but the window was fogged up from the cold. Finn's room smelt nice, sort of like perfume. I opened my eyes, wondering if Finn was awake yet. My lips parted as I sat up with a grunt. I looked around the room for Finn, remembering that he was lying beside me. I smiled with a sigh, lying back down beside him. His lips were chapped as he snores quietly, making me try my best not to laugh at him. His eyes finally fluttered open, revealing how big and brown they were. He smiled at me, immediately kissing me on the neck, and pulling me in closer. His hot breath went in and out against my skin, making me sort of cold. "I don't want you to leave." I whispered. Finn dug his face into my hair, "me to." He mumbled. Finn suddenly shot up from his sleeping position, startling me. "you're bleeding," he touched my knee lightly, making me flinch. I bit down on my lip, pretending that it didn't hurt. "Baby.." Finn insisted to put a bandage on it, but I refused. "It's fine," I say. Finn just stared at me as we both sat up. "What?" I blushed. "You're so beautiful." He smiled. I cocked my head to the side, wondering why he was saying all of these things all of a sudden. I ran my hand through his hair like I was petting a dog. Finn then kissed me once again, almost making me fall off of the bed. "If I could quit my job and fuck you all day I would," Finn sang. I punched him playfully, "ew!" I giggled. Finn and I sat on the roof outside of his window, looking at the sun rise. It was still a bit dark out, but I managed to spot a few stars still showing. "Let's name a star," Finn said, his skinny body lying beside mine. "Alright," I say, "what's a good name?" I thought. "Bruce!" I smiled. Finn laughed at me, "Bruce?" He repeated, making me sound dumb. "You wanna name a star, Bruce?" He said again. I nodded confidently, making Finn agree. "Alright," he held my hand. "That's our star." He sounded comfortable.
I loved this boy so much.
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