serendipity

someone take me home

(home/a place where i can go/to take this off my shoulders/someone take me home )

this chapter has been inspired by these lyrics

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never had i seen her this angry, she was merciless, every breath full of rage and fury. years of frustration bottled up and it all came pouring out like an overflowing sink. she wanted to show the world what they did to her, how they hurt to the point where she not only craved revenge on her enemies but on innocent men who were of no fault.

she was the most reckless wind i had ever witnessed. she was the wind they warn you about as a child but you brush it off because "how can a wind take everything away from me?" foolish was i because there came a day when she finally thundered and when she did, she brought the entire world to its knees.

though she made one mistake, she took my home away from me and for that i have sworn that she never rains again.

that day, they told me to go home but what if home is buried six feet under the ground. what if home just disappeared in to the sea of dead, his story drowned with a million others.

(he was more than just a story. he was the chatter of birds early in the morning. he was the red and pink streaks in the sky. he was that captivating piece of art which caught the eye and eased the pain in the heart. he was the galaxy, shining ever so brightly in the darkest skies. he was the sunlight pouring through an empty window on a february afternoon. he was the boy you couldn't help but hopelessly fall for. he was home. and now home is gone.)

so you know what i did? i cried to the sun for let the sun itself share my pain. for let the sun itself have a taste of what it feels like to be so hopeless.

i cried to the sky for let the sky itself know what it feels to be so small, so inferior, so incomplete.

i cried to the moon and the stars for let them know what it feels like to be so lost and helpless.

i begged the universe, screaming and crying like a child. bring my home back to me. i am on my knees, i will do anything. just bring him back. please.

the following morning, i woke up and i think i saw a rainbow.

- it was not as beautiful as him. it didn't do justice to my loss, nor did it end the stabbing pain i felt in my chest. but it was certainly something. something to hold on to.

that day, i finally mustered the courage to visit his grave. i promised him that i was not going to give up, no matter what happened. i would keep fighting till my dying breath. maybe, i could build a house and one day it could become home. i would do that.
i will do that.

and in that moment, i swear, i felt the entire universe smile at me.

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love love love - saf