serendipity

f r i e n d s h i p

i was walking down the
busy streets of new york
when i saw two girls who had
linked their arms with one another

they seemed to be in world of their own
a world which was decorated
with fairy lights and flowers
a world which could have been ours

looking at them
i felt my heart ache
because it was a painful reminder of us
this could have been our daughters

i think of how different it would be
if i had begged you to stay
if i hadn't let my ego come in the way
if i had ran after you the second you left

i spend nights thinking
how i wished you were
there on my wedding day
how unfair it is
that you are unaware of the fact that
i named my daughter after you

i cry myself to sleep
because i have been through
one too many heartbreaks
but the worst one i experienced
was the one with you

i still remember
how you used to listen to me
go on about tv shows
you didn't even care about
but acted interested
for my sake

i remember
how you got roses for me
on my fourteenth birthday because
i had never received a rose in my life

i remember
how you stayed up till four
listening to me rant about
boys i hadn't a chance with

i remember
the happiness i felt
when you called me your
best friend

if we could go back in time
i would have ran to your door
broken it down if i had to
and begged for forgiveness

it is too late now
i hope you have found someone better
someone who treats you the way
you deserve to be treated

you have a place in my heart
which no one can replace
if you are reading this
i love you

1 year later

she sent me a letter
where she got my address from
i have no idea
but i ripped the envelope
to see a picture
of me and her on my
sixteenth birthday

behind the picture
there was a writing
i'm guessing it was her mother's
in it was written

in the loving memory
of your best friend
11/12/2017

i'm sure she
misses you dearly

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