Poems of Life (Completed)

Insecurity

Being insecure means not feeling confident in yourself
or a situation you are in.
It means doubting yourself
And your abilities.

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For thoses who feel very insecure.. at times. I understand how it feels. Hope this helps...
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Sometimes I wonder
If I would ever truly be
Happy with my self-image
I worry that since I don't like myself
That no one else would like me

Just thinking about
How I look to others
Make me feel even more paranoid
It's just a continuous cycle
With an automatic switch

I don't...
I just can't bring myself
To like myself one bit
I get told all these compliments
But do they truly mean them?

I have become such a crybaby
I cry over the simplest of things
While I cry I sometimes
End up bursting out laughing

I get through each day
With a fake smile
That I somehow mastered
I try to convince myself
That things are all okay

I'm sorry that I ain't perfect
Sorry that I can't control my emotions
I like to avoid being with others
For I'm afraid of their's cruel words
I wish to be able to not get hurt

I wish I could just let them
Judge me all they want
Let them misunderstand me
Spread rumors around
I wish I didn't think
That their opinion wasn't my problem

I can't picture
Anyone having a crush on me
Thinking about me at times
Not forgetting about me
Smiling while I talk

Some people...
Who feel so insecure
Feel it in so many different ways
It's amazing what one comment
Can change someone
View of themselves

Hiding everything
To make it seem like they are okay
Just to not seem like
A dramatic, weak attention seeker

Maybe I'll look back
And notice how much
I have changed
Only if I could
Remember more of the good
Than the bad memories...