Hidden Secrets {Bill Weasley}

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"She's miscarrying."

Those words were the nightmare of everyone's day. Bill and Harley were not the only ones in tears after that, those around them felt every single rip in their hearts that the couple did. Remus was in a frenzy spouting in welsh some choice words that he had picked up from his mother when he caught her angrily shouting when she brunt herself one summers day when he was twelve, unaware that her son was there. 

 Molly was biting back her sorrow and took charge, seeing everyone around her in pain, especially her eldest son, broke her but she knew that action had to be taken. As much as Bill would have wanted to be the one to carry his pain-filled girlfriend out to the car Madison had parked on the opposite side of the road, he couldn't move, his eyes stayed on Harley and his hands in hers. Molly was well aware of this and rushed to the dining room getting Charlie who questioned his mother. 

Molly choked out what was happening and instantly Charlie strode into the room, scooping Harley up gently and getting her out of Grimmauld place and into Madison's car, which Madison climbed into the front seat Remus in the passenger and Bill and Charlie in the back with Harley laid across them. 

Harley buried her head into Bill's chest, her heart-wrenching sobs becoming muffled as she clung to Bill. Charlie kept a hold of one of Bill's hands supporting his brother as much as he could.

 He and Harley are such pure people who do not deserve such a thing. Harley's happiness came from Bill and became much more once she found she was to be a mother so why does it have to be taken from her? So soon as well!

Reaching St. Mungos hospital was rather quick to happen and so was getting Harley into the hospital. Immediately she was whisked away by some healers and even Bill wasn't allowed to go with her. The man collapsed into his brother's arms and Charlie sank to the floor with his older brother crying desperately in his chest. 

Charlie had seen Bill cry before, he was one of the only people to ever see Bill cry because he put on this demeanour of being the eldest who had to look after everyone else but Charlie had caught him sobbing to himself before. It was times like this that Charlie wished he could tell Bill that everything would be fine and dandy, like that time that Bill had a night terror and was scared out of his mind for a week but only showed it to Charlie and his parents. No one ever knew what had happened except for Charlie, Molly and Arthur. 

Tonks had pinned Sirius down into a seat in the dining room and sat on him because as much as Harley would have wanted Sirius there, he could not risk it and that wasn't going to stop him from leaving the house thus meaning Tonks had to sit on him. 

She and everyone else were unaware of what was happening and only Sirius knew but he had to keep himself composed around the children. Tonks and Nancy both had an idea about what was going on but hoped that what they thought was happening was not true. 

Lyall had been contacted by Dumbledore and made his way straight to the hospital calling out for his niece but like everyone else, nobody was giving him an answer. Ages. Everyone was sat around unbeknown to everything until a different healer came towards them. 

"Harliana Lupin?" The slender redhead asked the group and Bill was the first to his feet. "Who is the father?" Bill put his hand up, he couldn't form words in that precise moment. "You don't look old enough, are you sure Harliana is yours?"

Bill furrowed his eyebrows and Lyall stood up, "That would be me then." He knew he was not her dad but they needed information and he was basically her father despite actually being her uncle. 

The healer nodded, "It is normal for complications to occur during a teenage pregnancy-"

"She's not a teenager! I'm her boyfriend please tell me our baby and she is okay." Bill stepped in standing up beside Lyall.

"I do apologise, she looks very young. However, I must also apologise, there was nothing we could do to save the baby. Due to the amount of pain Harliana was in, we had to sedate her and we are running some tests to find out why such a terrible thing has happened. I am very sorry for your loss."

Bill and Lyall both grasped onto each other in fear of their legs giving way. There was nothing we could do to save the baby...

Molly let out a sob as did Remus. No! Why?

"C..Can...Can I..s..see her?" Bill stuttered and the healer led him to the room Harley was in. She laid on the bed motionless from her sedation but her rosy cheeks were still tear stained her eyes all puffy. "When will she wake?"

"In the next few minutes, we have given her some pain relief potion and have prescribed some that she will have to take until all of the miscarriage pain goes away which could, unfortunately, last up to five weeks." The healer explained, "If you need anything just shout. I'm sorry once again, sir." 

She dipped her head and left Bill alone with Harley. The man sat on the beside armchair and took her hand in his, his other hand running gently through her hair. "Oh, darling, I'm sorry you had to go through that pain, I'm sorry that we could not save our little baby."

"You couldn't have done anything." Harley mumbled coming to, her eyes fluttering open slowly and locking with Bills'. "I'm the sorry one, I had the duty to carry him or her and I failed."

"You did nothing wrong!" Bill retorted, "Nothing at all!"

Harley shook her head, "I didn't listen to you or Remus or Sirius or your mother or Dumbledore! I refused to stop doing things, I forced myself to go to the meetings. I argued with you all and you were all trying to look out for me and make sure the baby would be okay. I thought I knew best, I thought you all were being stupidly protective, but what experience with children have I had? You have six younger siblings, Remus looked after me and helped look after me as a baby, Sirius agreed with Remus and your mother had seven children. Bill, it's my fault that this has happened. I killed our baby because I didn't listen!" Tears started to stream down her cheeks once more and her words became slightly slurred from the sobbing. 

Bill didn't want to hear anything like that from her. He knew that she had refused just rest but he also knew that it shouldn't have affected the baby at all because it was so early into the pregnancy. He grew angry at the fact that she blamed herself and he snapped. 

"SHUT UP! SHUT UP! SHUT THE HELL UP HARLIANA LUPIN! YOU DID NOT CAUSE THIS! YOU DID NOT KILL OUR BABY! JUST SHUT UP!" He bellowed and Harley jumped, trembling from his outburst. He was so angry it frightened her. Immediately he regretted shouting and reached for her hand which he had pulled away from hers mid-rage but she darted it out of reach from him.

"Darling..." Bill slumped, it was not her fault in any way but she is stubborn and will not change her mind. So instead he incased Harley in his arms so that she couldn't flinch away from him in fear. "I'm sorry, Harls, for shouting, I love you and I don't want you blaming yourself for something we can't control." He was still crying. They both were. They have lost their baby after only knowing of him/her for a little while. Harley sniffed and put her arms around Bill all the fear of him subsiding. 

"It's my fault, Bill, I should have listened and now I am paying the price for it."