I Had To Know Her

Chapter 32

Elena's POV:

I got released from the hospital a couple days ago, and things have been going much better since then. I'm now enrolled in counseling, where I will learn to deal with my feelings and get them out in the open, so I don't have to continue to worry about bottling them inside. I like talking to someone I barley know about my feelings other than someone like Stefan or Caroline or Bonnie, I feel as though I'm being judged when I do it with them. 

Stefan & I also talked things about a lot, and I told him all about the reasoning behind those pills. He understood, even thought he kept telling me that it scared the living shit out of him when that happened to me. I could of died, people die all the time from overdosing, but I didn't. I was given a second chance not to make the same mistake twice. Those pills are gone now, in the trash, where I should of put them in the first place.

I've taken a few days off school, because most people knew about it, and I wanted them all to get a chance to forget, and I also wanted a few days to get back into the swing of things.

Today's my first day back, and Stefan is coming to pick me up, like always.

I saw his truck pull into my driveway, so I grabbed my bookbag and opened the door, closing it behind me and giving him a smile on my way to the car.

''You look happy this morning.'' Stefan said when I got into the car.

''I am.'' I said, and I really meant it. It felt good to be happy for once.

We pulled into the parking lot at school and I got out, and walk to the edge of the car, where Stefan met me and grabbed my hand, and we walked up to the school together.

Today's also the first day of second semester, which is when we change our classes.

Stefan walked me to my new first period, and it really sucked after he left, because I knew at that moment, that I wouldn't be seeing him so much in the morning, because I was so used to walking to the same first period, together.

I sat down at a desk in the front, which is usually where I always sit, because my vision isn't the best.

Caroline walked into the classroom behind me, and we smiled and jumped up and down a little bit, and I was glad that I knew someone.

Mr. Salzman, my new history teacher and new first period teacher, came in and wrote his name with chalk on the board, sat down at his desk, and put a huge smile on his face.

''Hello class, for those of you who are new and have never had me before, my name is Mr. Salzman, and I've been teaching history here since the beginning of this year, so for you Freshman, I am in the same boat as you. I'm new here, but that does not mean that you can push me around and break the rules. I'm cool, I consider myself it at the least, just don't push me over the edge.'' 

He seemed like a nice teacher, and I was glad to have a change in my life, a new semester and a new start.

I went to the rest of my classes in my new scedule, and ended up liking most of them, except P.E. but nobody likes that class anyways.

I saw Stefan walking out of the school to the car, and I ran up to catch him.

''Stefan!'' I said, when I was close enough.

''Hey babe, whoa-'' and I crashed into him, giving him a huge hug.

''Haha you seem a little too happy today, but it makes me happy!'' Stefan said, laughing.

''I am really happy, I also really liked my schedule, how do you like yours?'' I asked.

''Eh, it's alright. It just sucks because we have no classes together like we used too.''

After he said that, I didn't even notice that we didn't have any classes together all day. I'm so used to seeing him all the time, and now I'm not even noticing this? 

''I know, it does suck.''

We walked a little more to the car, and he dropped me off at home, where I went inside and Jeremy was sitting at the dining room table, eating a bowl of cereal.

I decided to make a bowl myself, and took a seat next to him.

''How was your first day of second semester?'' I asked.

''It sucked. School suck in general.'' He said, and I knew before the words even left his mouth, that he was going to say something like that.

We continued a converstion about school, well I did for the least, he kinda just said one word answers about how terrible school was, and shoved his face with some more cereal.

I finished my bowl, and went upstairs to my room. It was nice not coming home from school and doing homework, because what teacher gives out homework on the first day of a new class?

I layed down on my bed, and stared out the window, and heard the chirping of the birds flying past my bedroom, and I smelled the flowers that Jenna just planted in the front yard, and the sound of little kids riding their bikes up and down the street and all those little things were the only cares I had in the world. They were the only things I was thinking about, nothing bad, all good. All little things that most people don't even notice, but I did. I noticed those things because I'm not noticing all the bad, all the things and memories that used to bug me, I don't have to be that pathetic young girl that was in a car crash that killed her parents, I can start a new life and be THAT girl, that girl that can do anything and everything that she puts her mind too, and I need a new begininng and I'm going to do that, and I'm going to be happy. Everyday is going to be like today.