I Had To Know Her

Chapter 31

Stefan's POV:

It's been hours and I'm still sitting in the same place, right next to Elena's bed, in a chair, holding her hand and squeezing it, wishing she could feel my touch.

The doctors said she was supposed to wake up after a couple hours, and it's been that long but she's done nothing but twich a couple times. No movement, no fluttery eyes, nothing. I'm sitting here going crazy wishing she would just show some signs of life.

A few more minutes go by, and I think Elena heard me say something about wishing she would just move once, because she did. Her hand moved and then her whole body shifted a different way and I squeezed her hand some more, hoping she would feel me and wake up too it, but she didn't.

I decided to lay my head all the way back and close my eyes for a few moments until she moved again. I haven't slept at all since I've been here and I'm super tired, but I want to be awake for when she wakes up.

I close my eyes and then she moves again, and she squeezes my hand back and her eyes are slowly starting to open.

''Elena?'' I said.

She said nothing.

''Elena? It's me. Come on babe, open your eyes. I'm right here waiting for you.'' I said again.

She opened her eyes more and started blinking many times in a row.

''Stefan?'' She whispered.

''Yes, babe. It's me.'' I said, coming a little closer to her.

''Where am I? What hap-''

''Babe, none of that matters right now. I'm just so happy you're awake and talking to me. I've been waiting here for a hours for you to pull through.'' I said, feeling as if I was on the verge of tears.

Elena grabbed the side of her head and her lips went to a frown, and I'm pretty sure she didn't hear anything that I just said.

''My head.'' She said, running her hand up the side of it.

''What's wrong? Do you need something? I can go-'' I started to say.

''No. I need you right here. I just need something to help my head. It's throbbing.''

I shifted the chair I was sitting on a little closer to her bedside, if it could of got any closer in the first place and placed my fingers on the sides of her head, moving them up and down, masaging her temples and being very gentle, not to hurt her.

Her frown turned into a little smile and she moved her hand to mine.

''Better.'' She said.

I stayed there with Elena for a few more minutes until I realized that I should probably go tell the doctors that she's awake, and to call Jenna and tell her that she's alright.

The doctors took over and gave her on some medicine for her head, and did some x-rays to make sure that the pills didn't do any damange to her stomach. Jenna came rushing up from home and took my seat next to her bedside, and repeating ''I'm so glad you're okay.'' over and over again.

I couldn't be happier that she was okay.

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Elena's POV:

I woke up in the hospital about an hour ago, and I didn't remember anything that happened and how I ended up there but it began to flow back to me.

I remembered that I was sitting in my bathroom, on the floor, with my bottle of pills, and thinking about hurting myself and shoving more pills than I was supposed to take into my mouth. I didn't even think about what could of happened with that mistake. I could of died but here I am, alive, sitting in this hospital bed, surrounding by people who love and care about me and it was the best feeling in the entire world.

All the doctors left the room after a while, and Jenna went downstairs to get something to eat, and to call Jeremy and some other family members, letting them know that I'm awake and going to be okay.

Stefan was still with me, by my bedside.

''Do you need anything?'' He said.

''Just you.'' I smiled.

I needed him more than ever. The reason that I took so many pills was because I wasn't around him. He makes me feel happy and like every little or big problem in my life is non-existant. I was scared what would happen if he wasn't here and I just stood around and worried.

''I thought I lost you, Elena. You need to stop scaring me like that. I can't lose you.'' Stefan said, looking me straight in the eyes.

''I know, I'm so sorry. I don't know what I was doing. I'm stupid and made a mistake.''

''No, you're not stupid. I just want to know why you even had those pills in the first place and when you started to take them. You don't seem depressed to me, just cute little old and perfect Elena Gilbert.'' He said.

I smiled, and then told him about how I got the pills after the accident, but never bothered to use them because I didn't think I needed too, but lately I have been feeling different, like all my worrys are overflowing and getting to me more than they usually do. I told him about the way he makes me feel, and he was shocked.

''I don't want you to leave me.'' I said, with tears in the corner of my eyes.

''Baby. I will never leave you, you made a mistake and I forgive you. You just need to be careful. Maybe you could even look into going to someone to help you. I don't want the weight of being the only person that makes you happy on my shoulders.'' He said. ''Don't cry.''

Hearing the words 'don't cry' makes me want to cry even more and I do, and I try and pull myself together. Stefan whips the tears coming down my face and kept repeating 'don't cry'.

''I will.'' I whisper.

Maybe going to see someone wouldn't be a bad idea, and I could let my problems out without keeping them inside like I always do. I just needed someone.

I stopped crying after a minute and Stefan hopped into the hospital bed with me, cuddling me up. I moved over so I was basically on top of him, kissing his nose.

''I love you.'' I said.

''I love you too, Elena Gilbert, so much.'' He said, smiling from ear to ear.

It felt so good to be loved by someone, and I was so lucky to be loved by someone like Stefan Salvatore.