I Had To Know Her

Chapter 14

Elena's POV:

I woke up the next morning and I looked over at clock what read 10:19am. I finally slept in for the first time in forever.

I picked up at my phone, hoping to see a text from Stefan waiting for me, but there wasn't.

He didn't talk to me all day yesterday except for in the morning when he told me that he was on his way to school and that he would talk to me later.

This wasn't like him. He was basically attached to me. He told  me he was always going to there for me when I needed him. I still need him even though I'm getting back into he swing of things. But where was he?

I tried calling him, but it went right to voicemail.

His phone must be turned off.

I hope he was okay.

I had nothing planned for today and Jenna was off work, maybe I should go over there to check on him.

I asked Jenna if she could give me a ride over there and she gladly said yes and we made our way over to his house.

She dropped me off and helped me out as I made my way up to the front door. 

His house is so big. So big for only having 2 people live here.

I knocked on the door, and Stefan's Uncle Zach answered.

''Ah, you must be.... Elena?'' He said.

''Haha yes, and you must be the Uncle Zach.'' I said with a laugh.

''You are even more beautiful then my nephew has told me about. Please, come in and make your way upstairs. I think that's where he is. He hasn't really came out to much in while.'' He said. ''Any help?'' 

Blushing. ''Nope. I'm good. Thank you.'' I said, making my way inside the house and up the stairs to Stefan's room, which the door was closed.

I took my hand off my crutches and knocked on the door.

''Go away.'' Stefan responded.

I was alarmed. ''Stefan, It's Elena.'' I said.

I heard footsteps coming towards the door and before I knew it, he opened the door and was standing right in front of me.

''Elena. I'm sorry. I didn't mean to snap at you like that. Please come in.'' He said.

I came in and took a seat on his bed. He took a seat next to me and put his head down and burried it in his hands. 

''What is going on with you? You haven't talked to me in over a day and now you're acting all like this. I've never seen you like this. Talk to me.'' I said.

''It's nothing, Elena. Nothing you need to worry about, you have enough on you plate to worry about before you have to learn about my vampire problems.'' He stated.

Vampire problems...

''Stefan. I care as much about your problems just as much as I do my own. Maybe even more, now get your head out of your hands and look at me and talk to me.'' 

He took his head away from his hands and looked at me. He opened his mouth.

''I've just been having this craving. This craving for blood. This used to happen to me all the time when I was a ripper. I used to be a very bad person and I don't want to be that person anymore. I don't want you to know these things about me. I don't want you to see me this way. That's why I've been avoiding you.'' He started. ''I am a monster. I can be one at least.''

''Stefan, I'm not afraid of you and I never will be. You've told me about the troubles of being a vampire and I get it. You don't need to hide from me or avoid me.'' I said.

He looked up at me with a puzzeled look. ''I don't?'' 

''No. You never will.'' I said, kissing him on the cheek.

''I just don't want to take my chance of hurting you.'' He said.

''You won't. You just have to fight it. Just like you told me to fight my problems. Someone should take and listen to their own advice.'' I laughed.

He shrugged and laughed along with me.

''I'm going to go downstairs for a moment and grab myself something to drink, you need something?'' He offered.

I nodded and he went downstairs to fetch something.

I got up for a moment bumped my leg into the endtable, which hurt like a bitch.

I wanted to say something, but I noticed that book fell from the table and opened to a page.

It seemed to be Stefan's journal or diary or something of that matter.

I picked it up and sat down on the bed. I read something that I probably shouldn't of.

Who was Katherine Pierce? Why did Stefan think of her when we were together? Why did he say he LOVED this girl? But she's gone? Gone as in dead or gone as in they are no longer together anymore?  

Asking myself these questions in my head, on que, Stefan walked in, holding 2 glasses of water.

''No no no, you can't read that!'' Stefan said, setting down the glasses and walking towards me to take the journal.

''Why not? So scared that I'm going to see stuff written about your beloved Katherine? I shouldn't of came over. I came at the wrong time. You're in some type of mood and now you're writing about others girl and how they remind you of me. I'll just be going.'' I said, grabbing my crutches and limping my way out the door before I was stopped by a hand on my side.

''Elena, wait, please, hear me out.'' He said. ''This is nothing like it seems. Katherine means nothing to me. You mean everything to me, trust me. Just hear me out.'' He said.

I was ready to leave, but the feeling of his hand on my side made me close my eyes and decide to hear him out.

''Sit'' he said, pointing to the spot next to him on his bed.

I took my seat. ''Talk.'' I said, getting angry.

''Katherine is dead. She has been for years. She's the one who turned me into a vampire. She's the only who made me and my brother hate each oher. She made my life a living hell. I don't love her, but I can't deny that I used too.'' 

''Okay... that states things about her, but why does she 'remind' you of me?'' I asked.

''She looks so much like you, it's unreal. That's why I was shocked when I got you out of the accident. I thought you were Katherine for a second. But you aren't. You are nothing like Katherine. She is evil, manipulative and everything else bad. You are everything good. I don't need her, I don't love her. I need and love you, Elena. I promise everything I'm saying is true.'' He said, saving himself from me walking out the doors.

''She looks like me? Do you have like a picture of her or something?'' I said, interested.

He walked over to his closet and pulled out a box with many pictures inside and pulled out a single one and put it into my hands.

I was shocked at how much we looked alike.

''Do you understand now why I said all that?'' He said.

''I guess. I was just thrown off when you were throwing the world 'love' around with another girl when you're with me.'' I said, still looking at the picture. ''Are you sure me and her aren't like related?''

''Nope, I already looked into it, the day of the accident before I even got to know you. You guys have no record or anything. Just some similar characteristics, that's all.'' He said. ''You don't have to worry about other girls coming into my life, Elena. You are the only one I need.'' 

I gave him the picture back as he put it back away and made his way back over to me.

''I'm sorry for getting mad.'' I said.

''And I'm sorry for not telling you about this sooner and you having to find out about it this way. Not the way I wanted it to go down.'' He laughed.

''I'm glad we can talk civil with one another. No more fights. Okay?''

''Okay.''

I kissed him, not afraid of who he is. I don't need to be afraid.