Yoonseok/Sope one shots

The Best of Me

This isn't about Sope but I wanted to write about my experience of going to a bts concert because I really need to write all of my emotions out.

     Recently, Saturday, September 15, 2018, I saw Bangtan in Fort Worth. I remember the car ride there from Houston, I was so excited, I played BTS the whole way there and we got there and there were already some ARMY around for the concert they'd ask "you're going to the bts concert?" and things like that, it would make me even more nervous and excited for the concert. Prior to the concert, I set a calendar to count down till the concert, it was 147 days and I checked every day. I had planned all my life until that day I didn't even know what I was going to do with myself afterwards I didn't plan after that I felt as if my life would end after that glorious night.

     Let's skip to just two hours before the concert, I was a nervous wreck. I didn't eat anything all day I was so nervous and I barely moved. I had my outfit ready but I was anxious. I haven't been in a big crowd before in a long time and I have a bit of social axiety you see, the night depended on if I was gonna be okay or not. Here's the interesting thing, we got in line and I was okay, I wasn't as scared as I expected it was as if I had known the people around me even I didn't know anyone it felt like I was at home and it was a great feeling.

     It was a rainy day but we got inside the venue with an hour to spare, my mom bought me an army bomb and I was bursting with excitement. The people in the arena were screaming and it made me even more excited. We got to our seats and they were playing the music videos while we waited for the concert to start. We'd scream and we sang fanchants and my voice was already almost gone and the concert didn't even start!

     It was 8:10 pm and the lights went dark, a VCR started playing and lights flashed. I felt as if I was going to faint right then. I  was screaming and I was starting to doubt if BTS were even real. Then, from the heavens, BTS came out and preformed IDOL...I felt my heart beating so fast I felt like I was going to have an actual heart attack the whole night. BTS were there, right before me, singing and dancing and looking like the most handsome men in the entire world. I took several seconds to process that THE BTS was here, in my state, singing, and I was THERE watching them in REAL LIFE.

     The night went on and songs went by and hours went by, Hoseok performed his solo first and I felt like I was going to burst. Hoseok is my bias and he makes me so happy every day just the thought of him living his best life makes me feel like I'm on top of the world. I remember I was so hyped during Just Dance I threw my phone into the row in front of me. I was so into it I didn't even care I just left it there and sang along with THE Jung Hoseok. He moved so effortlessly around the stage, it really looked like he owned the entire venue. I absolutely adore him, he looked breathtaking the entire night it's hard to belive he's really out there looking that fine T^T. I couldn't stop smiling the entire time I felt so happy and proud and just I remember how I felt and I feel sudden joy and euphoria inside of me that I've never felt before, his voice makes me feel like all of my problems just wither away and that there's nothing to be afraid of or anxious about I just have happiness and hope and joy and it's the best feeling in the world. 

     The other members performed their solos and they all had their own beauty I feel like this night made me 100% an ot7 stan. I noticed how every member has their own beauty, each is unmathced, they're so unique and amazing. The stages were as perfect as they are and I wouldn't expect anything less from my kings. What shocked me was Namjoon's stage. I always loved his solo a lot, it has something special to me that I just can't put my finger on. I heard the first few notes and I felt just this, feeling of like I was calm and like I was home. His song made me almost cry I felt so relaxed it was the weirdest thing. Namjoon's aura in general makes me feel warm and safe but seeing and feeling that aura in person is a whole other thing. His presence is so sweet and his voice is so soothing and you can tell just by looking at him just how big his heart and his mind are.