Yoonseok/Sope one shots

Steady

     Hoseok sat with earbuds in, listening to music that contained vocals and barely a few beats from a bop. He was thinking, he stared out the window and watched the rain fall steady. He lost himself in the music, making sure he heard nothing but the deep beats that filled his mind. He was trying to distract himself.

     From what? Life. He was sick of the life he was living, he wanted to change but he was afraid, he felt trapped,  he was sick of himself. He was sick of the feeling he got when he saw the one who he couldnt help but love with someone else. He felt sick when he'd make eye contact with Yoongi. Those happy moments of small talk flooded his mind and remind him of how stupid he was to trust someone. He missed him, he lost him to a girl he barely knew. He felt bad, she had no idea how much she was hated and how much of a jerk that Min Yoongi was. He felt sick.

     Hoseok covered his face, afraid others would see how broken he felt, he was thinking long and hard about the person he was, he was sick. He felt alone, he wanted to fall out of the window to the concrete below, in desperate hope that change will come to him.

     Hoseok watched the rain fall steady, as it had the whole morning, the grey skies matched his clouded mind of thoughts he tried hard to avoid. He tried to match his breathing to the beat and it only made him more aware of his painful existence. Maybe if he just watched the rain fall steady, he wouldn't hurt anymore. 

     If he watched, his thoughts would fall steadily from his mind. His life, his person, Min Yoongi. Everything, he wanted it all to go away. But he knew he couldn't. That's what made him sick.