Him ; Bastille

Coffee Shop Blues ; 22

Three hours in and — finally — lunchtime rush hours have gone past like a breeze. I've clearly gotten the flow of working at Kitty's on my days off. Instead of covering a temps shift, I decide to opt for a late lunch myself. I go upstairs where half of the shop is in darkness due to a blown lightbulb and take the window seat overlooking half of the campus grounds. I like look at the architecture and shit...especially Atlas. This place is very aesthetic.

I'm gonna miss it when someday I'm forced to go back to England for whatever reason.

It's random, but only today did I find out about why Mr Holland called it Kitty's. Not just because of his only daughter. It's because of her cancer result from when she was a baby — no one thought she was going to be able to pull through considering she wasn't strong. Her father decided to name his new idea, the coffee shop, after Kitty in respect. Luckily enough Kitty — just like her future coffee shop chain — has lived up to her name.

I open my brown paper bag and see it filled with stuff I like. Normally Kitty gives me a bag of food when I forget to take out enough money from the bank or whatever. She's sweet like that.

"Room for a little one?" I look up startled from my Kitty thoughts...not that it's weird I think about her...only to see Kitty. "You don't need to ask." I smile as she sits down right besides me. Kitty looks excited for some reason. She's biting her lip and everything. "What?" I can't help but smile. With that Kitty nods her head looking impressed with herself. "I've got permission by everyone to go on gap year!  Professionals and everything. Dad even gave you permission to go on gap year!" I didn't agree to this.

Oh my god.

I didn't even text Syd back. Fuck she's going to hate me. "Really?" I nervously laugh. Obviously I'm regretting not sending back a text saying that I'll even consider it. Knowing my luck that offer has now got declined or whatever. "You need to tell me all about your family, I need a brush up! Oh my god. I'm so fucking excited! I'm going to go and trade in some money for British money later! I need you help with the currency stuff tho." I nod my head as I pretend to take everything she says in...

But how the fuck can I take everything in when...I never even texted Syd back out the gap year!

With that Kitty dives in my brown bag and takes out the thing I was probably looking forward to the most — the chocolate muffin. But I can't stay mad at her long. She is risking a whole year of university to go on a gap year...with me...for no fucking reason.

"Have you even told your parents about the gap year? Or is that a secret between you and Syd?" I don't know whether I should lie to her? I haven't lied to her so far about anything apart from loving her. Do I really need to start lying now? Because from movies and TV programs and shit the guy who lies always looses the girl.

I'm not going to lie.

"Not yet..." I admit as Kitty gasps. "But Dan that was like two weeks ago!" I nod my head taking in all the guilt. "So are you telling me that I've told the whole school and my fucking father that we're going on a official gap year when...we might not be?" I nod my head as clarification as she shakes her disappointingly. "I should be the one who is upset. This is all on me." With that Kitty stands up.

"I really wanted to meet your little sister Dan. Your family. Don't sweat about it." And just like that Kitty Holland goes down the stairs one by one. Leaving me along in the dark, with a real shitty atmosphere. I guess I could text my mum instead of Syd and tell her that me and Kitty still want to come?

I don't go downstairs or anything. But I text Kitty. I know my mum is going to let us come home no matter what, even if she is going to give me a mouth full of abuse for not replying earlier...I'm just over thinking things.

Me; Pack your things. We're going to England
   — Kitty; Serious? You couldn't possibly of texted your mom and got a reply that fast!
Me; I'm texting her right now. Just...go home early and pack, I'll cover for you.
   — Kitty; OMFGGGGGGGGG!!!!!!