Masters of War

XIX.

INT. GRAB CAR— 11:25 PM

Sis! Bakit ba bigla-biglang ka na lang nananampal!? Eksena ka!

Teka nga! Si Marga, naiwan! We have to go back for her! Fuck!

It's fine. Sinundo pala siya ni Simon kaya hindi na nakabalik sa table. Nakalimutan lang magsabi.

Okay. At least, we don't have to go back.

So... care to tell me why you did what you did?

May girlfriend siya, Ara.

Putang ina!?

Oo nga.

Ang daming plot twists! Ano'ng plano mo ngayon?

Wala! Wala naman akong kailangang gawin.

Oh, wala pala, bakit umiiyak ka?

Because I'm so stupid for thinking that if I find him again, this could be so much more. I... shit! I wanted to be with that cheating ass! Hinanap ko siya, Ara. I regretted letting him walk out my door that night. But right now, my regret is meeting him for the first time and meeting him again tonight. Ang tanga-tanga ko.

Sis...

Ara, you and Yvanna know the feeling, 'di ba? Your exes cheated on you. Ang sakit-sakit maloko sabi niyo. Pero ang sakit din pala magamit sa panloloko.

Hindi mo naman alam, Hera, okay? Hindi mo kasalanan. Men are trash and they are stupid. Hindi dapat ikaw ang umiiyak.

I feel cheap, sis! Parang ibinaba ko ang sarili ko kahit hindi naman dapat.

Bakit mo ilalagay 'yong worth mo sa isang tao na hindi mo naman kilala? Sis, siya ang cheap. Isa pa, hindi mo mapipili kung kanino ka magkakamali. Ngayon, kung paulit-ulit, ikaw na ang may kasalanan nun.

Sis, puro mali na lang kasi. Si Eros, and then Cronos, ngayon itong si Zeus.

Hera, look. Eros, the law student, was just kind to you. Isa pa, may girlfriend na 'yon. Si Psyche, remember? 'Yong lagi niyang kasama sa library.

Si Cronos, sumunod lang sa utos ng mga brods. Si Zeus, he might be a cheater, but you only shared a night with him. Ikaw lang ang nagbigay ng meaning sa kanila.

That's because you have this notion in your head that all of them can love you at some point. That one of them can give you the perfect love. But you see, they are flawed. 'Yon ang mali mo. Inisip mo, they could be more. Siguro for their other halves. Pero sa'yo? Sinaktan ka lang nilang tatlo.

Putang ina, Ara. Tatanda na lang akong mag-isa. I keep on think that they are right for me. When the truth is, they're all Mr. Wrongs.

No, Hera. There is no such thing as Mr. Wrong. They're just not the right one for you. Magkaiba 'yon.

Ang problema kasi sa'yo, ang bilis mong magmahal. You give your heart to any guy who shows you a little bit of kindness.

Is that a bad thing?

Not really. But before you open your heart, you should be kind to yourself first. Hindi mo naman pwedeng hanapin sa iba ang pagmamahal na dapat, una mong ibinibigay sa sarili mo.