The start

I don't feel anything

"This works, it don't change shit." Daryl tells Dwight. My eyes cut to me. He wont kill him. I know it.

"Everything I did, it was for Sherry.   That doesn't make it right. Or something that should be forgiven. But it's the truth. Only one I got left. She's the one that let you out. Then she ran." Dwight said honestly.

"She's out here?" Daryl asked.

"Somewhere. I hope. You did the same for Harley." Daryl looks at me for a quick second and continues walking.

"We have to be careful, but we can do this." Rosita spoke.

"Push through. Clear a path for the others." Daryl tells everyone.

"Count me in."

"I'll go. If I can have the crossbow," Dwight started.

"You can't. You'll stay right there. You too." Daryl points at Dwight and I. What is happening? He doesnt trust me anymore.

"You coming?" Rosita asked Tara.

"I'm gonna hang back, watch over the group." Tara says as she was staring st us.

"Come on. Let's get this done." Daryl tells everyone.

"Who wants to help me take care of that? Congratulations. You just volunteered." A small heard was coming this way. Tara threw a knife Dwight. Dwight picks it up and looks at me. I nod my head as He and Tara continue their walk. I watched over the group even though I didn't have a weapon I know I can still fight with my bare hands. In the distance I could hear a gun go off. Not allow one but one that has silencer on it. I look toward where Dwight and Tara ran off to. Tara is going to have a silencer on it. I could see them running through the woods her chasing him. I freaked out. I ran over to one of the guys who had a gun on his belt loop and took it and ran. He tried to stop me but I outran him and chased Tara and Dwight.

"I knew it was gonna happen. I just wanted to help you win first." Dwight said as Tara held the gun to his head.

"Back off Tara. You really want to do this now?" I held a gun to her head.

"Just sayin' they'd be idiots to risk it is all. Least we can say we checked." A man said. We all run into the bushes and see the saviors.

"Still rather be us than J-Money right now." Tara was still holding th e gun up to Dwight as I held mine to her. Out of spite Dwight ran out of the bushes with his hands up. No. No. Not now.

"Hey. Dwight?" They greeted him.

"The hell happened to you? We thought you were dead!"

"It was an ambush. You know, they shot us to hell, but I got away. Spent the whole night hiding. You know, running from the dead ones. Trying to make it back. What happened to Laura? I thought she mighta made it out, too." Dwight spoke. They are going to take him and he won't be able to escape this time. What if Laura told Negan but no one told the rest. What if this is a trap to take him in. To play dumb.

"Yeah, I'm sorry, D. No one's seen her." They tell him. Dwight sighed in relief looking around only noticing them.

"So, what are you doing out here?" He asked them. I could see the sweat pouring down his face. 

"Trackin' the Alexandrians." One of the guys tell him.

"Bout to check the swamp, see what we can see."

"I just came from there. They were smart enough to steer clear. Now, if I were them, I'd stick closer to Burke's Pass. Good cover, straighter shot." Dwight says as he leads them away. He takes one of their guns to play the role again. The role of Negan.

"Yeah. Yeah, lead the way, D. Barely recognized you without your vest." They walk with him so willingly.

"Lucky we didn't shoot your ass." They said as they were in the distance. Tara backs away and heads back as I turn around to shove a bullet between her eyes. Rosita was standing there.

"What were you doing?" Tara asked her.

"Making sure you were okay. I saw you running after him." Rosita said.

"Why didn't you try and stop me?" Tara asked.

"I was about too." I walk off toward the group. Daryl walks up to me.

"What happened?" He asked as he pat me down.

"I'm fine. Tara was trying to kill Dwight. The saviors showed up and he lead them away. He saved us." I scoffed as Rosita and Tara came back. Daryl charges at Tara.

"I told you to wait! For all we know, he could be tellin' 'em everything! Negan could be on his way here right now!" Daryl yells at the top of his lungs. Judith was getting upset as I walk over to her and Tobin.

"He isn't. He won't. He led them away. They were coming right for us, and he saved us." Tara tries to reason with him.

"She's right. He did. I saw it." Rosita shakes his head.

"I don't give a damn what he did. He can stick with them, he can come back... Hell, he can run. When I find that son of a bitch, I'm gonna," Daryl tells but then he looks over at Judith and I.

"C'mon." Daryl tells us as we continue our journey to hilltop.

"Whats wrong with you?" Daryl asked as we walk up the hill. He was carrying Judith in his arms.

"You tried to kill Dwight. After I told you no. After I told you all, that if you're going to kill him you're going to have to kill me. It seems like you don't care if you kill me."

"Babe, I," Daryl starts.

"No, you don't get to do that." I tell him as he stops walking to process what I said. Even I couldn't believe the words that came out of my mouth.

"So that's it? We're nothin? Thats how you feel?" Daryl asked.

"That's the thing. I don't feel anything. And I want to. I want to feel loved. I want to feel compassion. I want to feel everything. But most importantly I want to feel pain. I got shot the other day and I didn't feel shit. Not pain. Not adrenaline. Nothing." I tell him. Daryl scoffs as he brushed past me. They open the gates up as we walk in. Carol ran up to us along with Maggie and Enid.

"Carl, he got bit. He didn't make it." Daryl tells them. Enid broke down crying as Maggie held her. Carol started tearing up and took Judith. I'm sure this is emotional for them.