Curves

Chapter 23

Monique 

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After dealing with a week of work I followed what Leek said. I spent the weekend with mama and she was nice enough not to ask any questions about why I was back there. She enjoyed putting me to work and making her dinner. I had my phone on silent and didn't pick it up once. I was able to think. To really think everything through and blocked out all other voices that weren't my own. And because of that I was able to come to a few conclusions. 

One, Jamel is no longer an option. He never really was a serious option for me now that I think about it. I really only liked the feeling of being wanted by him not him per se. I've seen guys like Jamel and I know he's nothing but a player that just wants sex from me. Maybe it does take the right girl to change a player's ways but I honestly don't think that's me. I have to fix myself before I fix anybody else. 

Two, I don't think Jayden is for me either. He's a great guy but not for me. I like the conversations we have but I think we'd be better off as friends. Besides, work place relationships don't always work out. Not to mention I don't need anymore grief from the people in the office. Life is hectic enough without the petty drama. 

The thing with Zy is still kind of a mystery to me. I can't say he's completely out of the question but I'm not sure how I feel about us dating still. I've honestly been holding back from him because of fear. I'm scared we won't last and it'll ruin our friendship completely. I guess a part of me would rather not risk that so I get anxiety when we go into foreign territory. So I'm kind of at a crossroad on what I should do. One thing I do know is that we can't go forward if we don't talk at least.

I came back to my house that Sunday so I'll be able to talk to him before being buried in work. I had a bunch of messages on my phone. Brooke sent me a couple saying she was checking in and making sure I was okay and then let me know she left for Miami late last night. Toni was also checking on me and making sure I take it easy. I answered them but was a bit disappointed that Keisha hadn't texted or called. I assume she's still upset but I have no idea why. 

Jamel texted once and that was late at night asking if I was up. Yeah you ain't getting no bootycall nigga. Zy texted me surprisingly saying Toni couldn't reach me and making sure I was okay. The rest were from Jayden. He literally texted once or twice every hour from the moment he woke up until he went to bed. I'm getting creepy LMN vibes. Before I could do anything Zy's number popped up on the screen. "Hello?"

"Nigga where the hell have you been?" he immediately fussed. "Got niggas growing gray hairs worried about you."

"I was at mama's house. I needed time to get away and get my mind right."

"Oh okay. Warn niggas next time."

"Yeah yeah. Where are you? I was about to call you to meet up."

"At the park with Cadie. Down the street from your spot."

"Okay let me get washed up and I'll meet y'all out there."

"Why you have to take a shower before coming outside? What sense does that make?"

"Shut the fuck up. I do what I want." I hung up and went inside. Before I could even take one step towards my room my phone rang. "Ugh!" I looked at the number and saw it was Jayden. I just let it go to voicemail before going to take a shower. I showered for an hour and felt refreshed. Mama hated me using all of her hot water and always ran me out of the shower after twenty minutes. Even though we're in October it was still pretty warm so I put on a fitted blue half shirt with a patterned skirt with sandals. The skirt went over my stomach so I felt a little easier wearing this out. By the time I got to my phone Jayden had called at least ten times. "Seriously?" He called again forcing me to answer. "Hel-"