"From the ashes, we shall rise"
WARNING: THIS BOOK CONTAINS EXPLICIT CONTENT , VIEWERS DISCRETION IS ADVISED
The second book of the tainted series, it can NOT be read as a stand-alone.
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The hours passed by faster than I had expected after everything, not giving me time to actually breathe and get my thoughts together. After I seen Avery in the house, it had caught me off guard. Not realizing that she had been kept around, but I didn't want to focus on it.
Zayn knew what he was doing, I trusted all of his process. But part of me couldn't help the cruel question of why she was still breathing, I didn't want to think that way at all. That didn't represent me or how I thought at all, but seeing her pushed something inside of me that I can't get rid of; And it scared the living hell out of me.
But I couldn't voice that to anyone who didn't understand my anger, it pained me to know that Zahir was underneath my care. And in the midst of it happening, I had promised to keep him from harm and couldn't even do that right.
Everything about that ruined me deeply, it took a long time to get to this placement. There are some days where I still can't get over what I had did to my father and sister, being able to created a big enough crash to take both of their lives in just one night. And it happened again but this time, I had sent poor Zahir right into the lions den.
The whole ordeal made me completely nervous to give birth to this child, I didn't know how I was going to raise a baby. None of this would ever prepare me, sometimes part of me thought I was too fücked up to have a family.
Afraid that after this no matter what I'll just end up like my mother, hateful and completely oblivious towards my child; All because of the torment I endured from younger years until now, and it's the reason why I wanted to get all of the help that I can...
My thoughts had been cut very short as N'dra came to inform me to pack up myself, since he was finally ready. Whatever they had talked about went on for a long time, causing Zayn to miss going to the gym to practice for his big night. I didn't bother questioning it because all it meant was that we can talk about this later, I had every right to know since she didn't just play Zayn. But she also played me as well...
I nodded while collecting all of the stuff, each of the cameras placed gently in a protective case before she had grabbed the bags from me. The both of us looking at each other with a sense of understanding, after that second she walked outside to place them in Zayn's car.
The air had gotten crisper as the sun began to set within the horizon, I put both of my hands in the pockets after zipping up the giant winter coat. Following after N'dra as she closed the trunk of the car, I mumbled 'thank you' as my eyes focused on Caleb sitting in his car with V talking to him.
His head propped up against his wrist, as he listened to Vincent's words of encouragement and probably scolding for what had went on today. I sighed deeply as I reached the final step, as they both looked in my direction. After that Vincent tapped Caleb on the back, before hopping out of his car.
Vincent walked towards me, blowing warm air into his hands. "Everything okay?" He asked softy while taking in the view of all of the men Zayn traveled with, prepping up the trucks with all of the stuff he may need.
