SEESAW

Time To Say Goodbye!

"Su Mi-ya, please walk beside me." Yoongi made sure she was close to him the entire time. He held her hand all the way. They were done with Yoong's shopping for the day and they took a bus home.

"Yoongiya, have we bought everything? I think we have. Let me go through the list again." Su Mi was talking to herself. Yoongi's heart was aching this entire time. Last twenty-four hours with her he thought.

"Yoongi when will you give your CSAT?" she asked him "Are you even planning on giving it?" 

"I don't know love," he said "Let's see how this goes. Maybe I will plan it next year. What about your major? Have you decided anything yet."  

"I am confused. I am thinking about pursuing science in general. But still haven't figured out which stream. Mom's gone to Busan by the way. Are you coming home tonight?" Su Mi blushed.

"I have to meet my friends in the evening for dinner, my peers. It might be late. I might go home directly." Yoongi said.

"Fine." Su Mi sounded disappointed but she understood the fact that Yoongi had spent the entire week with her and he obviously needed some time to spend with his friends too.  

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Yoongi performed his song with his members on stage that night. Why did it feel like this was going to be his last time? He wondered. They laughed, cracked jokes, ate all they could. Yoongi danced on the music and they had clicked pictures.

"Yoongi, Do well." his friend said."Make us proud."

Yoongi smiled at the encouragement.

After all the commotion, they all sat silently. Probably confessing how much Yoongi will be missed in their own way. 

Just then Yoongi heard the sound of rain and loud thunder outside. He panicked and got up from the seat. 

'Su Mi is alone at home' was all he could think of. He apologized to his friends, hugged them in hurry and ran all the way down to her house. It was pouring outside and the sound of thunder kept getting louder and louder. 

He knocked on the door but no one opened. He entered the passcode and ran to search through the house. He saw her bedroom door open. His heart racing, he rushed to her room. She was sitting there in a corner of the room frozen, her face pale, eyes shut tight and her legs shaking.

"Su Mi" Yoongi almost gasped and ran to her. "I am here. Don't you worry, Love. I am here."  Yoongi held her tightly against his chest and patted her head softly. 

"I am so sorry Dad. I am very sorry," were the only words Su Mi uttered shaking and crying. Yoongi was shit scared at this site. He knew the story but he didn't know it had made such a deep impact on her mind. 

"Love, I am here. It's okay," was all he could say. He didn't know what to do. After their first encounter, this was only the second time Yoongi had seen Su Mi in this state. Her mother was the one who'd be beside her everytime. Yoongi did not know what to do. Yoongi thought of calling her mother so he tried to get up to reach his phone.

"Don't go," were the only words apart from 'I am sorry' Su Mi spoke.

"Alright. I am here, Love. I am not going anywhere." 

Su Mi's hand tightly clasped on to Yoongis.   

Hours went by and they sat silent, Su Mi's head deep into his chest and Yoongi's one hand over her back consoling and the other over her ears masking the sounds outside.  Later, the thunder outside calmed down and the sound of the rain disappeared. 

"I am sorry Yoongi," Su Mi said gathering herself while getting up and leaving the room, "You can go home now."

Su Mi felt ashamed, ashamed at her mental state, the anguish, the pain and the guilt she has been carrying in her for years now. She didn't want Yoongi to see this vulnerable side of hers, scared that it will make Yoongi afraid of being in this relationship or he may just use it as an excuse in future to walk away from her.