My outlines were drawn to the danger....tellherthatit'sover - AstridS
Hector Bellerín 🔴ArsenalFC
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Hector and I lay in my bed looking at the ceiling. I feel his hand take hold of mine.
"Why do you still wear your wedding ring?" I ask. "We cannot be having this conversation again," he says. "You told me that you hated being married, but two years later, you're still married to her," I say. "What do you want me to do Jules?" He asks. "Tell her that it's over, tell her that you don't love her anymore, we can't continue sneaking around like this," I say. "To be fair, you said you were drawn to the danger when we started hooking up like this," he says. "That was before feelings were involved," I say. "I promise Jules, just a few more months like this and then we can be together for real," he says. "And let me guess, marriage until my position as the mistress opens up," I say sitting up and gathering my clothes. "Where's all this coming from? I thought you liked the whole no strings attached dynamic," he says sitting up with confusion. "Hector, everyone around me is getting married, my sister, my cousins, my best friends. And do you know what they ask me at every single wedding: When are you getting marred? When's your big day? And how can I tell them that I'm in a two year no strings attached relationship with a married man with whom I see two hours a week for a hook up," I say with a slight hint of anger and shame. "
Well when you put it like that it sounds...." He says. "Trashy, something someone with no morals would do. All very fitting adjectives for what we're doing," I say. "Come on, trashy is a bit extreme if you ask me," he says. "Oh, so lying to your wife and friends is the epitome of class. If someone had told me two years ago that's I'd be doing this I would've laughed because I never would've stooped so low, but here I am in a hotel room about to do the walk of shame to my apartment alone," I say getting up as I put my shirt on, "living my best life." "So what does it mean for us now?" He asks. "I don't know Hector, but it can't go on like this anymore, no more sneaking around, no more lies. You need to choose who's more important to you," I say making my way to the door to leave. "So I take it, next week isn't happening?" He asks. "Not until you decide, but I need to get my life on track because your wife deserves better than this," I say, "so I guess this is goodbye."
