Tired Days

25

I stare at my phone and freeze in place. Why is he dming me? He screwed up bad and he just decides to text me you know after a year of no contact. This can't be happening. I lock my phone and look up. Kara is standing next to me with a worried look on her face.
"Mads, are you okay?"
I shake my back and fort.
"What happened?"
I unlock my phone and show her the notification.
She gasps and takes the phone from me. After a few seconds of non-stop typing she hand me back the phone with a huge smile on her face. "He shouldn't bother you anymore"
She links her arm with mine as my mom walks out of the mall and we head back to the car.

  My mom drops Kara, Adley and me off at the house and when we go inside it's quiet at first. I start to wonder if I saw Kian's car in the driveway. Before I can finish the thought there is loud yelling coming at us from all directions. When the noise finally reached us, we see that it's the boys.
And they have woken up Adley. She starts to cry and I look at Kian with annoyance. He looks at me with an apologizing look, and grabs Adley out of her carrier on the ground. All the boys crowd around Kian and try to calm the small baby down. I watch in amusement for a few seconds before dragging Kara upstairs to the nursery to put away the outfits we bout for Adley.
The dress we bought for her for the wedding is beautiful. It's a simple white dress with a lace/ mesh cover that has 3/4 length sleeves.
We also bought her a few winter outfits considering it's November already.
I show Kara around the room and couldn't be happier. I love having her around because she is so supportive and she listens to me and we honestly complete each other, in a non-relationship way.
I walk her to our room and show her around in there. We end up on the bed choosing a movie to watch. I lend her a pair of PJs and after we chose what to watch, we go downstairs to make snacks.
When we get down there we hear lost of cooing. I peak into the living room and motion Kara over. All the boys are fussing over Adley while Kian attempts to change her diaper. Kara and I watch for a second before making ourselves known.
I cough and Kian's head shoots up. A large smile spreads across his face and he calls me over. I sit down next to him and guide him through the diaper change.
When he's done he hands Adley to Jc before leading me to the Kitchen. I look back at Kara and mouth "sorry" then continue with Kian.
When we get in there he wraps his arms around my waist and pulls me in for a kiss.
When we pull apart he looks at me with so much love.
"I forgot how good you look in my clothes" he comments and winks. I feel the heat rush to my cheeks with the realization that I am wearing Kian's t-shirt and sweats. I smile shyly and love the fact that he can make me act like a 15 year old girl at 25.
All the sudden we are snapped out of our little moment by my phone going off. I pull it out of my pocket and check it.
Instagram/ brad93: fine, but she doesn't realize what she is missing out on
  I gasp at the message and before I can stop the action Kian grabs the phone from me.
  He looks at the phone and I can see the anger start to spread on his face. The knots in my stomach grow tighter from the nerves of how Kian will react. He looks up at me for a second the looks back down at my phone.
  "Please...please tell me this isn't the same Brad that...you know"
I stay silent and he looks at me. I can't read how he is feeling.
  "Mady say something"
I look up at him and open my mouth to explain but nothing comes out. I don't know why I feel so guilty, I didn't do anything.
  Kian walks over to me and sets his hand on my arm in a comforting way. Then he sets my phone down in the counter and pulls me in for a hug.
  He runs his hand on my back and  whispers in my ear, "are you okay babe? Do I need to say something to him?"
  I feel like a weight has been lifted off my shoulders when Kian says that. I thought he would be mad that I didn't tell his but he comforted me.
  Only now did I realize that this doesn't really bother me. I don't have to worry about him, I have Kian, I have Adley and I am getting married. I don't need anything but that to comfort me.
  I nod my head into his chest and he pulls me back and kisses my forehead once more before leading me into the living room again. I see Kara holding Ads above her head and Bobby filming her.
When we walk in there Kara hands over Adley and sits back down in the ground. Kian oddly enough sits on Jc and I sit in the rocking chair. We all sit and laugh for a couple hours and catch up.

At 9:30 I stand up and take Kian with me to the nursery, we tell everyone that we will be back.
Adley is close to sleep in my arms and I lay her down in her crib. To assure that she falls asleep now, Kian and I sing her a lullaby.
After 2 minutes she is soundly asleep, and we sneak out of the room. We get downstairs and decide to make a late dinner/snack.
I grill up a few grilled cheeses and Kian gathers junk from the pantry.
We all sit around the table and talk.
"Well we are going to get going, we have a bit of a long day tomorrow and then a flight early the next morning. Thank you for the great night guys!", Bobby thanks us, and gathers all the other guys and steers them out the door after we have properly said our goodbyes.
Kara says goodnight and heads to the guest room.
"Baby?"
"Yes Mads?"
"I know you knew Kara was coming here"
"I know."
He grabs my hand and interlocks then together.
"And you kept it from me?"
"Well ya, it was easy because you locked yourself in the office with all your planning for the wedding"
"I guess so"
He opens the bedroom door and we walk to our separate sides of the bed.
I take off the throw pillows on my side and he mirrors my movements. We set them in the trunk at the end of our bed before getting in bed and cuddling up together. With Kian's arms wrapped around me I easily fell to sleep.