Finest Jin

Nightmare (21+)

I woke up to the hotel room strangely cold. Jin was gone, the bed still warm where he had been. 

"Jin?" The door to the hallway was open. I pulled on the housecoat and went searching into the hallway. He was in the elevator. A woman was with him. Small. Long, dark hair. I saw her press the button and Jin stood, staring past me, his face impassive. The doors closed. Elevator going down.

"Jin!" I pushed through the stairwell door and raced barefoot down the stairs to the very bottom, where I burst through the exit. 

I was outside, snow underfoot, the atmosphere thick and swirling with cool mist. Jin was standing across the parking lot, facing me. He smiled, looking down at the woman beside him, making my heart pang as I saw the affection with which he peered down at her. He lifted his eyes to mine, laughing. Her hand caught hold of his and pulled him around, leading him off into the fog. I pursued, calling him.

They were speeding up and I broke into a run, ignoring the sting of my feet crunching through the snow. A gust of wind cleared the way before us and I could see them, heading down a hill, running hand in hand, the woman leading, both blissfully unaware of the pit looming up before them. I screamed a warning but my voice was carried off on the wind. The same breeze that tauntingly carried the womans' cackling back to me. I shouted again, running down the hill, in very real danger of losing my balance. 

I had gained and nearly crashed into Jin as he slowed to look back at me. I reached for him. A loud crack signalled the break of the ice beneath his feet. I had just caught his hands when he fell, plummeting down in such a rapid descent that he blurred before me. 

"Jin!" I screamed, feeling the splash of the icy water come up over me. I had him under the armpits, elbows slammed on the rough ice, feeling it grate on my skin, desperately trying to hold his head out of the water. Jins' face was so serene. He seemed unaware of his predicament. He was getting heavier and heavier. "Somebody help me, please!" I saw Bang Si Hyuk passing in the mist. He looked squarely at me and walked on. Jins' parents also moved on by, their expressionless faces melting back into the mist. Other silhouettes moved past, deaf to my screams. 

Only Jins' face was above the water now, ruby lips calm, his eyes at peace. 

"Please, Jin, please; fight! Help me!" I knew he had heard me that time but just as he made to respond, a thin arm snaked out of the water and wrapped around his neck, pulling him under. I saw his face turn to fear, then terror as he struggled to get back to the surface, trying to breathe. 

I plunged my arm into the icy cold water, catching his hands, only to have her pull them from my grasp and anchor him lower into the depths. The hole was icing over. I groped in the slushy water, just managing to swirl it around uselessly. I could feel the ice contracting until the hard edges of it were chafing around my arm. I withdrew and it solidified. A perfect sheet of glass in which I could see Jin, panicked, kicking hard, his lips turning blue as he fought. I beat on the ice, bloodying my fists in my failing attempts to shatter it. At this point, I would gladly have dove in to save him. I could see the woman clutching around his waist, weighing him under. His mournful eyes were pleading as he sank lower into the murky depths.

"No, Jin! Oh God, please, no! Jin! JIN!"

There were hands on me, a weight pressing down. A palm across my mouth as I screamed again. In the darkness, I could make out a shape looming over me. I wrestled with it, terrified.

"Jin! Jin!" His face molded out of the shadows.

"Telly-Ah; it's me!" I squinted at him, my vision blurred with tears. I could feel my eyes stretched to their widest, whites of my eyes flashing my terror. My nostrils were flaring, my muscles shaking as I wrestled with the man pinning me down. I caught his scent. Jins' scent. My breath came in fast and I held it, trying to orient myself. 

The mask above me melted into the gentle features that I loved. It was him. Jin let go of my mouth and bent down to kiss my third eye point, on the wrinkle of my scrunched up forehead. This elicited a sob from me. 

"You were drowning," I cried, "She was pulling you down...I couldn't reach you...I couldn't break the ice..." He hugged me to him, his solid weight anchoring me to the bed, holding me to reality. I wrapped my arms around him, clinging to him for dear life. "I am sorry, Jin, I tried to save you..." My tears just kept streaming, my body trembling under his heat. I was frozen right through, the feel of the icy air still raw between my teeth. 

"Shhh...it was just a bad dream. I am right here. I'm not going anywhere. I've got you." 

"Kiss me, please." My eyes sought his in the dark and he bent to tenderly take my mouth in his. I couldn't stop the quiver. "Make love to me, Jin. Please." 

He considered only a moment, before pushing his tongue into my mouth, his hands dancing over my naked flesh. I wrapped my legs around his hips and he pushed up into me, filling my sadness with his burning thickness. 

"You're so cold," he lamented, sliding along my body curling around his heat. "I will warm you," he promised, speaking into the rapid pulse below my jaw. He rocked into me, his heat expanding through me, chasing away the chill. I held onto him tightly, welcoming his invasion, clenching the muscles that bunched and released as he pumped on top of me. My legs pulled up higher. I needed him closer. I needed to hold him tight. 

I brought his eyes to me as he orgasmed, afraid to have him look away, afraid that I would lose him in the mist. When at last his trembling ceased, he was drifting off on top of me, then I noticed my own shaking had quelled as well. 

But I still held on to him, tightly. 

And some warning voice in my head wouldn't stop repeating that it just wasn't tight enough...