Make It Last Forever ❤

God's Plan

"Every single moment, that you're not here. Its evident to me that everything seems all clear. & I want it all back. You never miss a good thing til its gone." -Chris Brown ♥

X POV

Im bored as shit @ home alone. So i call up my cousin Von (A/N: Remember X's cousin from the begining of the book?), i aint talked to that nigga since graduation, & that was almoat a year ago.

"Hello?" he said.

"Yea, waddup cuz."

"Waddup dog, what you been on?"

"Shit, nothin. Just wanted to see if you wanted to chill sometime this week, & catch up on some things. I aint seen you in a while." i say.

"Yea man. Thats cool. Just hit me up when you ready." he said.

"Ight cuz."

"Ight bye."

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Today is the day im suppose to hang w. My cousin Von but i got so much shit to do. I gott take Xavia to the doctor, pay bills, & go help my mama move into her new apartment. So i just texted him & told him i gotta postpone & he said it was cool. Well i gotta start my day.

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Trinity POV

Its 4 in the morning & X's phone is getting blew tf up. Whoever is calling, calked about 36 times in a row & i was too tired to get up & look who it was. He's a deep deep sleeper. Im so tired of hearing Chiraq by Tyga play over  over again. (A/N: Thats Bae! ♥) So i wake X up so he could answer the phone & i can go baack to sleep cause the girls had me up all night!

X POV

"Hello?" i answer.

"X, Von is dead." i heard a sad weary voice. I wasnt really aware of who it was so i just answered.

"What? Dead, how - i just talked to him." i say as my heart stopped.

"They killed him X, he's dead." the voice cried. Then i noticed it was my mom. I slowly felt my body slow down. This shit is unreal. I hop up making Trinity jump. Right now, all negative shit goin thru my head. Im furious right now. Im throw on some sweats, a hoodie, & my black nike roshes. I was in all black but now isnt the time for wardrobe functions cause the call i just got, is making me feel like this is a dream. I hopped in my car, ignoring Trinity & tryin not to wake the girls up & sped to my mama's house. I wasnt tryna ignore her but im too in disbelief to sit & talk. When i hopped in my car, i actually just let everything sink in, then it hit me. Tha my cousin, closest family memeber to me was dead. I layed me head on the steering wheel, just calm myself down. Then the waterworks came. Its all my fault. If i wouldnt had nothin to do today, he woulda been w. me,  wouldnt have got killed. Im the reason my cousin i dead right naw. He aint deserve this. Now i gotta live w. this for the rest of my life.

I zoom to my mama house. Runnin all red lights. Who tf in the streets @ 4 in the mornin? They better suck my dick. On the way, i see police lights down the way i was headed. I drive up further to see Von's car & hella policemen. I even saw my mama car. She was standing out there w. My auntie (Von's mom) who was loosing it. I hopped out my car, not even turning it off or closing the door. I run over to see Von's lifeless body on the ground, with a bullet hole to the head. He looked cold, pale. I just broke down. I fell to my knees & cried. My mama lifted me up & held me, so i cried on her shoulder. "Its all my fault. We was suppose to together today,  i-i called it off. An-...." i say as she cut me off.

"No baby, its not your fault. Everything happens for a reason. You had nothing to do w. this."

"It is my fault ma, & naw i gotta hold that, for the rest of my life."

"Listen to me, whoever did this has nothing to do w. you Xavier. It was bound to happen sometime based on the circumstances, whether you guys were together or not. It okay Xavier. Dont carry that burden on yourself." she said pulling me in for a hug.

I cant believe im seeing my cousin dead. I never thought this day would come. Just then, my phone rung.

"Hello?" I answered.

"X, whats wrong, where are you?" Trinity asked.

"Von is dead T."

She paused for a while before sayin something.

"Im so sorry X. Do they know who did it?"

"Nope not yet." i say tryna get my words out.

"Ok, X be strong ok? Dont stress yourself baby. At least he's @ rest now. I love you, ok?" she said.

"I love you too." i said as a tear escaped my left eye. I ended the call. I know she couldve came in her car but she was their w. the girls so i completely understood. Im just not believin that he gone. But i know its not a dream. I wish it was. I saw them put my blood in a body bag. It took everything in me not to lose my mind. They still aint found who did it. But they say it was definitely homicide & not suicide. I just wanna know why tho. It wasnt suppose to be like this.

I headed home from the scene. I get home, not even going upstairs. I took my shoes off & just sat there. I couldnt sleep, or nothin. I was in a whole nother state of mind. I just sat up in the dark. Staring off into space.

Trinity POV

I know i heard th door slam a long while ago but im hoping its X because he wouldve been came upstairs. I lag there w. crazy thoughts going thru my head. I call X's phone. I hear his phone start ringin from what sounded like the livingroom. I get up & go downstairs to see X sitting on the couch. I flick on the light to see him sitting their, obviously not in his right mind. I understand his family just died & he's hurt. I go over to him to comfort him. I hold him as he wrapped his arms around me & i let his tears soak my stomach. I never seen him this traumatized. He was tellin me how its his fault, he shoulda been there. But i assured him that what happened had nothing to do w. him. I shedded a few tears with him.

I just hope he gets thru this...Whatever happens is a part of God's plan & we cant question that.