'Cause Nothing Lasts Forever ✔️

Chapter 21- No more tears. I'm back.

Excursion day 5

Blaire's POV

“You know what? You are too inexperienced. You are waiting for your Mr Perfect while ignoring the most perfect person around here. You are dreaming of prince charming while toying with prince charming. Do you get it, Blaire? Whole Madison's Academy dreams of Christian but he only dreams of you. The whole school wants him but only you have him. Actually, no one understands the priority of teeth while they have it, they get to know the importance when they don't have it anymore. Don't hurt a heart so much that it turns to stone,” Sophia's words showed real anger.

She turned back and was gonna leave when I called out, “ Aren't you practically doing the same?"

“What? What do you mean B?” Her heels clicked as she turned and stepped forward.

“Aren't you waiting for your true love while ignoring the person who loves you truly?” She remained speechless.

“I know Soph. I know you have something for James but you don't want to destroy Jase's happiness. But look out for Duncan, he has got a thing for you.”

“Don't talk rubbish,” she said and walked out in a hurry, leaving me alone in the darkness.

Silence wrapped me and loneliness hugged me tighter in the darkness. One moment it felt like I had everything and another moment I had nothing.

Feeling useless and being upset with me, I coiled up in the bed. Tears rolled down my cheeks as pain surged in, both their words continuously played in my head. Yeah, I'm a noob in this outer world but what was the meaning of all those? Is it such that I don't know every part of his life? Am I to discover more? And did Sophia really mean those words? 

I lay on the bed in a sleepless night with a wounded heart and a wet pillow.

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We left early for the Sonoran desert, but seeing Christian maintaining distance was painful as if stabbing a dagger in my heart. I could relate so much with myself and the desert. Lonely it was, dry and calm but still bright.

It was almost late in the afternoon when we returned back. The day was way too stretchy.

I don't remember a day being so long, or is it because he isn't there...

It feels so damn empty Christian, please come back.

"Why is it so difficult to ignore him, to urge the feeling of being with him? Why can't I stay any longer without talking to him? I am strong right! Yeah, I'm strong," I stood Infront of the mirror talking to myself.

It was late at night. Jase wasn't there in the room which supposed that Chris should be there. But no one except darkness was present. My slow and fatigue steps dragged me out of the suffocating room. I walked towards the long balcony at the far end of the granite corridor. Looking up towards the sky, I smiled. There was a strange pain caged up in my throat.

"I miss you, Lily," I whispered.

I miss you so much. Today if you would have been here, you would hug me and say that all will be fine. You would soothe me down and make me happy somehow. No one can replace you, Lily. No one. Rather if you would have been alive today I wouldn't end up here. Neither I would come here nor would meet Christian again. We could continue our lives back there in LA. I wonder how things changed so rapidly and life flowed on with the pace.

Out of the corner of my eyes, I noticed Christian at the other end of the balcony. Confused and guilt-ridden, I took small and fragile steps towards him. It was worse to look at him. He was looking like a rucksack, red and swollen eyes, stained face, messy hair, a complete mess!

"Christian," my voice so low, I doubt anybody except me could hear.

He glanced at me with eyes half-opened rather he was forcing them to stay open. Even in a drunken state, he looked so damn handsome.

"What have you made of yourself?" My voice clogged with the built-up emotion, tears welled up in my orbs. 

I stared directly into his eyes, my cheeks burnt red. After a long and hard stare, he spoke, his voice hard as stone and sharp as a knife.

"Why do you even care?"

" 'Cause I do." My words were insignificant.

"No, you don't. You bloody don't. So don't try to fake your damm concern for me," his eyes staring hard into mine. 

He took slow and steady steps towards me and I took backward steps. After a few steps, I was pinned to the wall. He slammed his palm to the wall, cornering me in his arms and brought his lips down to my ears. I could smell the strong scent of alcohol.

His warm breath beat against my skin and lip slightly grazed against my ears, "actually it was all my fault. I was acting like an emotional fool, some love-struck teenager, I forgot my life lesson. You think you know me right? Sorry babes, you barely know me. You have never ever seen that bad-boy, Christian. Never did you see my darkest side. I ruled Madison's. I changed for you but if I want I can go back to what I was. I can rule Madison's once again. MARK MY WORDS," he whispered against my ears, sending chills down my spine.

With that, he turned towards his way and walked off stammering. I stood at his retreating figure, unable to hold myself anymore, I broke down into tears. Silently I stood there, not a silent whisper in the air, tears rolled down and stained my cheeks. My legs gave up and I kneeled down on the ceramic tiled floor. I could see Christian standing in the shadows of the hallway, hands jammed into the pocket and head bent down towards the floor.

Seconds later, I noticed long strides on the floor. I looked up to see Christian approaching me. I stood up and wiped off my tears. He came to a halt and after moments of silent conversations, he extended his hand and caressed my cheek. I could hear his deep sigh.

"Even drunk, angry and disheartened, I can't see you crying. It kills me." His voice had the warmth of the sun.

"I'm sorry," I muttered in a soft and low voice.

"And so am I. Forget what I said, I didn't mean it," he said holding ears as he breathed out heavily.

"Why can't you listen to me for at least once?" he asked desperately.

At last, a tight smile spread across his face as he stepped forward diminishing the gap and encircled his arms around me. I wrapped my arms around him in return. The hug was warm and welcoming. It felt like home after so long.

After so damn long thirty hours.

A silent hug could speak so much, even express more than any words could do. Wrapping me tightly in his arms, he lifted me up and carried me off to the room.

"Shhh! Sunshine. No more tears. I'm back."