'Cause Nothing Lasts Forever ✔️

Chapter 22 - Darling I'm a daydream dressed like a nightmare

Excursion day 6

Blaire's POV

“You look cute when you cry,” I smiled up at him.

“I saw the bad boy cry,” I yelled and ran across the room.

Suddenly, he gripped my wrist and pulled me back. I was caged between his hard built chest and the wall.

“Oh! really?” He said looking deeply into my eyes, his signature smirk plastered across his face.

His voice sounded sizzling hot and smoky. After a moment, my eyes drifted to focus somewhere else towards the ceiling rather than his sapphires which were eating me up.

“Ch-Chris-Christian, l-leave me. Please,” I spoke looking at the ceiling. His warm breath teased my neck.

“Well sunshine, maybe you didn't notice but I am not holding you in the first place,” Christian said as he walked off slowly towards the bed.

It took time for me to register that yeah he was right. He wasn't holding me in the first place. I was cast in an embarrassing position, my cheeks blushed red and I couldn't make any further eye-contacts.

“The baby girl is falling for the bad boy, huh?” he snickered under his breath and this time I can guarantee, my face turned red as a tomato.

Well, that day we first visited the science centre of Arizona and it was pretty awesome. They did a planetarium show on the solar system. Although not all of us had knowledge of physics or astronomy, still we loved it. There were so many cool things to look at and then we went to the mystery castle. It was built out of several materials - stones, Adobe, salvaged rail tracks, automobile parts, telephone poles etc. It featured a chapel, cantina and a dungeon too. It wasn't till six in the evening that we were back.

I didn't know how far it has worked out with Chris, but maybe he's still upset over what has happened last day. I might not have admitted it aloud but Christian was cute. Maybe I was falling for him, maybe! My mind went back to what had just happened a few minutes back. I felt a close attachment to him. I had never been so close to anyone except Lily. She was family to me and he made me feel the same -- FAMILY.

Christian's POV

Tears rolled down my cheeks as our fingers disconnected.

“We can't be together Christian. It's impossible. It wasn't meant to be forever. It wasn't. Let me say the last goodbye to you and this world. I loved you Chris and will always do,” she said as a narrow stream of tears escaped her eyes and then were shut forever.

“No Blaire, you can't leave me,”

“ you just can't damnit.”

“No way it can happen,”

“NO...”

And I woke up, panting, my breathing was heavy and fast as if it was racing with the wind. It felt like I just stepped out of a shower of sweat. My heart was beating fast, faster than ever. I looked over to the other side of the bed to find Blaire sleeping peacefully.

I cupped her cheeks and removed a few strands of hair from over her face. She looked so innocent. I don't know why but it felt like I've known her for a long time, like old friends or something. My mind went back to what I just experienced, it almost felt like real. I stared at her, recalling the nightmare. She made a slight movement and suddenly she was wide awake. She sat up in anticipation. She looked worried, tense features took over her face. Maybe she could read something from my face, my eyes. I don't know what but I tried to divert my mind.

“Hey, what's wrong?” She immediately straightened up.

“N-no-nothing sunshine,” I mumbled.

“Don't lie, Chris, I can sense it. Look at your condition. What's wrong?” She chided in a worried tone.

“Uh...I - I just saw a dream...” I stuttered.

“Umm, nightmare?”

“Yeah kind of,” I nodded.

“Look sunshine, you can't enter into my life anymore. I want you to restrict you to a limit. I have always wanted that but every time I try to do that, you come one step closer to me. I can't do that. I'll prove to be a danger in your life. I was a bad boy. Let me just stay like that bad player boy who only hooks up with girls, leaves their mattresses signed and then knock them off eventually breaking their hearts. I can't afford to lose you. I'm not that rich. Blaire, I just can't. You feel so much like home. I feel the urge to change whenever I'm with you. I feel the need to be a better person every day than I'm now. And I know I will be. I'll never get back to who I was. But honestly speaking, I can't destroy your life, mine is already a mess due to my brother but not your one...” I trailed off.

I was afraid, or shall I say terribly afraid. Afraid of losing something priceless or someone and that's her. My words were genuine and honest. It brought a pang in my chest. She stared at me in astonishment, with a pained expression.

Am I a soft and innocent teenager afraid of losing someone from his life?

“Christian, shh...,” she cupped my face between her palms.

“Do all paper boats sink in the ocean of tears? No. Some even ride the highest of waves and swim in the deepest of oceans and stride through the toughest of moments. And that's the stream where our dreams reside,” she said and I perked up my head in inspiration.

“Yeah, we'll be together Christian, you'll not lose me,” she smiled at me softly and then smacked a kiss on my forehead. With that, automatically, my lips turned upwards revealing my teeth. I know she did it in the heat of the moment.

“But...,” I trailed off as a gloomy shadow took over my expressions.

“Christian,” she caressed my cheek with her soft hands.

God! This stare is driving me crazy.

Why is she looking at me like that? Not like I'm complaining or something but still...

Why the fuck am I blushing?

Wait!! Am I blushing? Seriously? That too in a moment like this?

Who the fuck blushes after having a nightmare!? Shit! I'm totally screwed.

“You are not a danger in my life Christian,” she completed the sentence I trailed off a little earlier cutting off my thoughts.

“You are one of my best friends, Christian. Trust me, you are one of those fantabulous people and freaking awesome friends I have ever met in my life. You have always tried to cover up the gap of Lily in my life, to keep me away from that pain. Keep the faith, we'll together make it out of it,” she said as she  directly looked into my eyes with her blackish-blues which were now as soft as butter and as calm as winter's sun. 

I could see trust in her eyes but she didn't know what she was speaking about. She absolutely had no idea. Suddenly my arms wrapped around her and pulled her closer, inviting her for a warm and cosy hug.

“You are the magician of my life,” I murmured, truly meaning those words.