Dear diary,
I just woke up and am honestly kinda nervous about the day. I don't get why Jack will most likely act the same as always. I don't know I'm always nervous about everything so I guess that's it. Ughhhhhh this is a weird nervousness like something's going to happen... I doubt anything will happen though and damn I don't know if I hope I'm right or not. I'm scaring myself now. Okay I need to stop this.
Anyway I'm gunna wear Jack's shirt today. That makes me pretty happy and he loves when I wear it. So I'm kinda happy about that. Ughhhhhh I honestly love Jack. Is it bad that slightly scares me? I told him I was going to never let anyone into my heart again and he begged be not to. And soon after that we started liking each other again. Not your typical love story but I'm pretty happy with it. An amazingly perfect and cute guy loves me again. And the fact that it's Jack makes it a thousand times better. I kinda wish he was here right now. Id probably let him go back to sleep with his head on my lap and just run my fingers through his hair. No one understands how happy that would make me honestly. It'd make me one of the happiest people ever. Like you don't understand I'd actually be smiling and genuinely happy which doesn't happen much. Is it stupid that that would make me that happy? Eh, I don't care it'd be perfect to me so.
Oh and guess what I'm gunna stop cutting. Or at least I'll try. I hope I can do it. It'd make life a hell of a lot better. Anyway it's time for me to eat breakfast and get ready so bye.
-Allie
