Matchmaking

«24»✔

«Shannon»

I feel the alcohol kicking in when I try to find Alex, I feel the world spinning and I have to grab onto the counter to keep me from falling. I've been searching for him for a good 20 minutes but it feels like an eternity.

I stumble to the dance floor and see him grinding with the blonde from before.

"Peter... can we go home?" I ask.

"Peter? I thought you said your name is Alex?!" The blond yells.

"Long story." He says and he nods to me. I trip over my feet and stumble but he grabs a hold of me and leads me out of the house.

It took twice as long to get back to the house as when we went to the party but eventually we reached and I went straight to my room.

While walking Alex kept on nagging about why I'm such a mess. I didn't tell him the reason and even when I climbed the stairs he wouldn't stop.

To be honest it just made me want to cry, it made me want to let out all the tears I've build up for a long time the anger, sadness and almost every overwhelming emotion that made tears well in my eyes wanted out.

I shut the door and made my way to my bathroom. I rested my palms on the sink and looked at myself in the mirror.

My eyes were dull and not as bright as they used to be, my lipstick was smudged and my hair looked oily and tangled.

I shook my head slowly and then the water works began. It was first one tear, then more followed and my eyeliner and mascara made ugly marks but I didn't worry right now. Now was my time to let it out.

I remember all the bad things and all the hurtfull stuff that made me sad in the recent time. The times that always stayed in my mind.

About 4 minutes passed and I started sobering up. My tears started to become less and I felt good. Tired but good. It felt great to let it all out for once.

I washed my self in the shower and towel dried my hair after that. Then I climbed into my bed and fell asleep faster than you can say 'sleep'.

«...»

3 days... 3 freaking days passed and I felt like myself again. I'm still ignoring Cody although he tried to talk to me but I just walked away or looked the other way.

I know by the way his face drops when I do it that I hurt him but he should have thought about it before he pulled that shit he did.

Max and Livia's relationship is advancing slowly and they are now sitting with each other at lunch and I'm still sitting in the popular group but I feel lonely... I know sounds sad and depressing but it's the truth.

Although all of the people tries to talk to me and make jokes it's just not the same it was with Livia or Cody, but it doesn't mean I'm going to forgive him because I'm not social like before.

During practise he saw that he's not on my good side and he backed off. Alex is oblivious to what is happening or he just don't want to get involved, I saw that he and Katy is getting closer, I have to ask him about that some time.

Now I'm laying on the bleacher, practise ended a few minutes ago and I decided to rest a little.

My eyes are closed and my body is covered in a sheen layer of sweat, the sun is heating up my flesh and I know I have to get up otherwise I'll get a bad ass tan, but besides that I'm enjoying the silence.

"Are you coming with tonight?" A voice asks me out of nowhere and I recognize it as Max's voice.

"Shouldn't you be at home already?" I ask keeping my eyes closed.

"Nah... I waited here with you since you layed down and I wanted to talk to you but I saw you're not moving anytime soon so, yeah... here I am." He chuckles and I sigh.

"Where to?" I ask.

"Huh?" He sounds cofused.

"You asked me if I'm coming with tonight?" I say.

"Oh right... well I asked Livia out again and she agreed, I told Cody to tell you but clearly he didn't. I don't know what's up with him lately... but anyways, you and him are my dating coaches so I thought you should be there." He says and I shake my head.

"Nope." I say simply and sit up. He stands up and looks confused as I grab my sports bag which is laying next to me and stand up.

"What do you mean 'nope'?" He asks and I sigh.

"Max... she is into you and you know by now what she likes and not. It's not necessary for me to be there, you can do it without me and besides, I have plans." I say. I feel kind of bad because I don't have plans but he doesn't need to know that my 'plans' is named Netflix, bed and popcorn.

"What plans?" He asks and I hop down the bleachers and begin to walk to my car. I hear his footsteps follow on the gravel in the walk way to the parking lot.

"Why are you asking?" I ask.

"Nevermind... so are you coming or not?" He asks and I turn around.

"Max... you got this handled." I say and he sighs and I give him a hug. He returns it but he doesn't look happy.

"Great, now I'm going on a date alone." He runs a hand over his face.

"With Livia." I add and he glares at me in a playful way.

"Still." He mumbles and I laugh.

"Bye... and enjoy." I say.

"I don't need 'enjoy' I need 'good luck'." He says and I shake my head and open the car door.

"No, you don't... you just need your normal confidence." I say and he shakes his head with a smile while I get into the car and drive home.