Sweetest Fear

CHAPTER 2

CHAPTER 2

"Where is my father?" I asked. I saw how their brows furrowed before they look at each other in confusion. "What do you mean? Isn't your father already dead?" I heard Yoongi asked. I looked at him and realized that I came here to Seoul for nothing. I guess my father doesn't live here anymore. I looked at the address given to me. Maybe I could stay here for a while. Maybe someone can help me find him.

I look at the boys who are staring at me like I am crazy. I instantly regretted my decision in coming here to fulfill my grandmother's last wish.

I pursed my lips and look at Yoongi since he is the only person familiar to me, but he looked at me like I am just a stranger without any emotions in his eyes.

My eyes started to water. I came here with everything I have left with the thought of meeting my father. Why didn't I thought of the possibilities of not finding him because it has been years already? I guess I wasn't prepared for the alternative result of my action. Maybe I should just go back to where I came from. I'm Sorry Grandma. I really tried.

I bowed my head in humiliation and apologized before I dashed outside the house pulling my luggage with me without any sense of direction.

My vision is so blurry it was difficult for me to see my path. Just then, I heard a loud horn from somewhere and when I look up I saw two headlights approaching me. I can feel my heart beat accelerate.

Is it finally my time to join my mother and grandmother? Maybe it is better that way. No more pain. No more suffering. I closed my eyes in resignation as I wait for the hard impact of the cold metal to hit my skin but after a few seconds nothing happened. I opened my eyes and saw the black car a few inches away from me.

The sudden realization that I almost got hit by the car and was still alive made me weak on my knees. God, I almost died. I looked at myself to make sure if I have any injury I wasn't aware of but so far I found none.

"Yah! Are you out of your mind?!" I looked up where the sound came from and I saw an angry Yoongi with beads of sweat on his face. He walked up to me and pulled me to stand. "Do you want to die?" He asked furiously.

"If you want to kill yourself please don't do it in our neighborhood!" He scolded me before he turned his back at me and started walking away.

I watched his retreating back and felt a little pain in my heart. I honestly expected him to comfort me but I guess he is still mad at me after what I have done. Well, I deserve this.

The feeling of being helpless and alone hit me like a train. I can feel the tears welling up in my eyes. I bit my lip as I stifle a sob. I miss my Grandma. I miss my life in the Province. I want to go home.

"Hey kid, get out of the way will you? You're blocking the road!" The driver of the car shouted at me while he continued blowing his horn. "I- I'm sorry" I apologized in a hoarse voice, as I bend down to pick up my things. I was about to grab my overnight bag when I heard someone hissed beside me and a pale white hand reached out for my bag before I could. I turned and saw Yoongi's back with my luggages in his hands.

"What are you still standing there for? Move, Noona! Get out of the way." He muttered through gritted teeth. I scramble on my feet and hurriedly walk to the shoulder of the road joining Yoongi and my luggage. He passed me the luggage without looking at me.

"Go Home Noona, you don't belong here." He said those words before he left me standing there alone. I felt like a hand squeeze my heart. I know I don't belong here. He doesn't need to remind me. I know I don't belong with him anywhere in this world. Why did he even followed me?