Sweetest Fear

CHAPTER 10

CHAPTER 10

A day after Mr. Bang Si Hyuk and I talked about my mother coming here to Korea for a vacation, I received a text message from him informing me that he took the liberty of arranging a dinner meeting he for me and her at one of the most famous restaurant here in Seoul. I was hesitant at first, because I doubt if I can face the truth. What if they just have the same name? And if my mom is really still alive, why did she leave me behind and pretended to be dead?

I checked my watch and it's only 6:45 PM. I've been waiting here atvthe restaurant since 6:30. I came in early, because I don't want the person I am meeting to have a bad impression of me. My anxiety is building up. My palms are getting sweaty and I am starting to bite my lips. "Excuse me, Miss. Dobyou have an order already?" I looked up to see the waiter asking politely. I smiled at him a little embarrassed. This is the second time that he asked since I arrived. "Ahm, I'm sorry but can I order later? I'm still waiting for someone." I replied. The waiter just nodded his head in understanding. He was about yo leave when I stopped him  "Ahm, can I please have a glass of water?" I asked. The waiter smiled and nodded before he bowed and left.

The waiter didn't took too long to get me a glass of water. I thanked him and took a sip because my throat is getting dry due to my anxiety. I glanced at my wrist watch as it  turned 7:00PM and I felt my heart started beating faster. The moment I looked up, a woman who just entered caught my eye. She looks like she is in her mid-forties, wearing a simple yet elegant tan colored pencil cut dress accessorized by a pair of white pearl earrings. That moment I felt the world stop spinning. She looks so familiar.

She was craning her neck from side to side as if looking for someone. An usher saw her and immediately attended to her. They converse for a few seconds before they turned around and started walking in my direction. They are now coming to my table. I immediately stood up as I wiped my wet hands to my pants. My eyes never left her face.

"This is your table reservation ma'am." The usher pulled a chair and helped the lady sit down.

"Thank You." The lady said gracefully. Now, that she is only a few feet away from me I can see the resemblance of the woman in the picture in my wallet to the woman seated right infront of me. I can't help but stare. So Bang Sihyuk-nim is right. My mother, Park Sierra is alive. I am too stunned to say anything. My brain suddenly stopped functioning.

"Miss? MISS!" I was woken up from my trance when I saw two fingers snapping right in front of my face. I looked at the person doing it and suddenly I felt embarrassed. I composed my self as I greet her. "Goo-.... good evening, Ma'am, My name is Park Sarrah." I stammered. I bit my lower lip mentally scolding myself as I bowed 90⁰ while holding my belly button. I need to make a good first impression to her and yet my clumsiness is showing.

"Sit down Miss Sarrah." She ordered with a sweet smile on her face. So I followed her completely mesmerized by her beauty. But because of my natural clumsiness, I missed the spot where my chair is and so I ended up falling on the floor. "Oh, are you okay?" The lady immediately stood up and helped me. "Ah, yes, yes! I'm okay ma'am. Thank you!" I felt my cheeks turned red. This is really embarrassing. This is not going according to plan. I mentally sighed.

"So have you ordered already?" She asked as she took the menu from the table and started flipping the pages. "Not yet, Ma'am!" I answered timidly, my eyes never leaving her face. "Oh, please! Stop calling me ma'am. I am not that old yet. You can call me Sierra." Upon hearing her speak her name, my heartbeat doubled its speed. Sierra, that is my mother's name. Could she really be my mother? I felt something warm spread within me and I felt my tears welling up in my eyes, and before I could stop it, my tears started to fall. I haven't met my mother, but somehow I miss her. I miss her so much. I want to hug the woman in front of me but I don't want her to freak out.