Sweetest Fear

CHAPTER 20

CHAPTER 20

"Excuse me, Miss. Can you move aside please?" I was woken up from my reverie when the waiter arrived with our orders in a cart. I instinctively moved aside giving him space so he can pass. The moment he opened the door to our booth Mr. Kim and his wife turned around and saw me standing by the door. I fidgeted and was lost for a moment suddenly anxious that they might think I was eavesdropping. After a while I decided to go back to my seat with my head hung low. The couple remained silent while the waiter arranged our order. "Okay, let's eat." Mr. Kim invited as soon as the table was set and so I obliged. There was only silence as we chomped on our food.

"So how was the food?" I choked on my meal when Mr. Kim suddenly spoke up. "Are you okay?" He asked worriedly as he handed me a glass of water. I looked up startled with the sudden question. I accepted the glass of water and took a sip as I coughed lightly. "Drink more." Mr. Kim suggested and so I did. After a while, my cough died down. "Are you okay, now?" Mrs. Lee Somin asked maybe out of courtesy and so I nodded my head before I went back to eat. 

"So, Miss Sarrah, can you tell us anything about yourself?" Mrs. Lee asked out of the blue. I looked at Mr. Kim then at Mrs. Lee and wondered what to tell. What do they want to know. "Well I asked you a question, don't you know how to speak, you little b*stard?" Mrs. Lee asked after a few minutes of awkward silence. I was taken aback.  "Somin-ah! Please don't be rude." Mr. Kim chastised his wife but Mrs. Lee didn't flinch and remained looking at me like I am just a piece of dirt. 

I felt humiliated but I didn't bow my head this time. She has no right to call me a b*stard. I didn't chose to be born out of wedlock. I can feel my hands start to shake in anger and so I put down the fork and knife I was holding on the table before I stood up. "I don't think this is a good idea Mr. Kim. Perhaps, I should leave. Thank you for the meal. It was delicious." I bowed to Mr. Kim before I walked out of the room not even waiting for their reply because I am afraid that I might lost my cool and slap that insulting b*tch. 

"Sarrah! Ms. Sarrah!" I can hear Mr. Kim calling me but I refuse to stop walking and turn back to him. I don't want him to see how evil I can be. "Sarrah! Ms. Sarrah, please wait! At least let us send you home." Mr. Kim offered. I stopped walking and turned to face him. "No, thank you, Mr. Kim. I can go home by myself. Good bye!" I bowed one more time before I turned around and got inside the elevator that happened to opened at that exact moment. Talk about perfect timing. As soon as the door closed I felt instant relief. I gasped for air. I didn't realize I was holding my breath for so long. I can't believe that Mr. Kim's wife could be that straightforward and cruel. Is having bad attitude common in rich people. I shook my head before I leaned on the wall as I waited for the elevator to stop on the ground floor.

I walked out of the building with my heart a little heavy because of what happened. I sighed. I didn't even had the chance to ask if he really is my father. I was waiting on a bus stop station when my phone suddenly start ringing. I immediately received annoying stares and glances from the other waiting passengers. I feel embarrassed because of its ringtone. I forgot to put it on a silent mode. I picked it up from my bag to check who is calling. It is Yoongi. I know I am supposed to answer it, but I didn't. I feel like I don't have enough energy to talk to him at the moment. I took a deep sigh before I declined the call and put my phone back to my bag after turning it to a silent mode. 

A bus arrived, I sluggishly walked towards it. I feel like my energy is already drained after the meeting. I paid the fare and took the farthest seat on the left corner of the bus before I put my earphones on and played "Before I fall In Love" by Coco Lee. I watched the view through the window as if I am filming a music video. I was in the middle of internalizing the song when suddenly the bus came to a halt and I almost fell down my seat and then my phone vibrated. I checked it and saw a message from Yoongi. It says, "Where are you? Call me a.s.a.p.!" I rolled my eyes before I put the phone back on my bag without replying and continued listening on my Sppotify playlist. When the bus stopped at Han River station, I got off. I am tired and yet I don't want to go back to the dorm yet. I need some fresh air to clear my mind.