Sweetest Fear

CHAPTER 32

CHAPTER 32
YOONGI's P.O.V.I am seething with jealousy when I saw Noona pulled Jinhwan away from me. Are they together now? Does Noona love him now? What about me? I never took my eyes off of them in case something goes wrong. They stopped in front of the front door. I saw Sarrah Noona glanced at me before he faced Jinhwan and they started talking seriously. I can feel some discomfort in my chest as I watch them converse. I am curious as to what they were talking about. I really want to hear what they were saying but I stopped myself from eavesdropping. I will not go as low as that. I scrunch my nose in detest. I thought I could handle my temper well this time but I was wrong. As soon as I saw Jinhwan pulled a small red velvet box from his pocket my body automatically moved. I took the box from his hand and handed it back to him."She doesn't need it. Thanks! You can go home now. It's getting late." I growled as I shoved him out of the door totally ignoring the fact that I am intervening and they are not yet done talking. I don't give a f*ck whatever they think. I heard him complain but I paid him no attention. I turned my head and looked at the beautiful woman standing beside me with her big round eyes gawking at me, speechless with my brusque behavior. Huh! I know that was disrespectful but I am still her husband and it is my right to protect what is mine! I won't apologize!"Did he just proposed to you and you accepted?" I asked with a knotted forehead. I know that there was no proof that she accepted but I can't help but assume when I saw the smile on Jinhwan's face and it pisses me off."No! I did not! It's a misunderstanding!" She looked flustered as she slowly took a step back when I menacingly took steps towards. She stopped moving when her back hits the wall. I saw her cheeks slowly turned red, and I can't help but admire the beautiful woman in front of me. It's been ages since I saw her and yet her beauty remains in my eyes. My heart beats erratically as I scan her face and the memories of us together flashes before my eyes. I want to be with her again. "Remember my dear wife, you are only mine." I growled as I looked deep into his big round brown eyes. My eyes darted down to her plump red lips and I suddenly lost control. The moment I tasted her lips it feels like home. The warm feeling in my chest spreads all throughout my body. She is the only woman who can make me feel this way. I am getting lost in the ecstasy as I devour her lips. I want her. I want her so bad. I lowered my kisses to her chin down to her neck and heard her moan. A fire so strong suddenly ignited in my soul and is slowly consuming me. "Mommy! Who is he?" I felt my heart skipped a beat when I heard that tiny voice. I felt Noona broke our kiss and pushed me away. I turned around and saw our son standing right in front of us. He was looking at me with a cold facial expression that seems awfully familiar. I can't help but smile. There is no doubt he is my son."Who are you ahjussi? Why are you eating my Mom's face?" He asked with a straight face. I heard Sarrah Noona gasped in surprise but I smiled. My son has no fear. I knelt down so that we could be on the same eye level and tried to talk to him."Hi! My name is Min Yoongi. Nice to meet you." I handed out my hand in greeting but he just looked at it as if he has no plans of taking it. He was just staring at me and my hand, then he walked right past me to hug his mom. I felt something pierced my heart. My son ignored me because he doesn't know me. I can't blame him. I wasn't there when he was growing up. Regret and disappointment consumed me.I watch him whisper something to his mom and when Sarrah Noona smiled and nodded he slowly walked up to me and took my hand."Nice to meet you,...... Appa." The moment I heard the word Appa, I felt so much happiness that I can't contain, I immediately scoop him up to my arms and pulled him into a hug. I honestly want to do this the moment I laid my eyes on him but I was afraid that he would reject me and that is something I can not handle. A tear escaped from my eye as I held onto him real tight."Yoongi! Let go! He can't breathe!" I heard Noona complained but instead of letting our son go, I pulled Noona into a hug and I broke down and cry. I can't believe that I am now able to hug two of the most important people in my life after all these years of being alone. I am now with my family. "Yoongi," I heard Noona whispered my name as she held my face and tried to wipe away my tears. "I am so sorry." One by one her tears fell as she look into my eyes. Her voice is laced with regret and I can feel her sincerity. I felt my heart being gripped as I saw the sadness that passed in her eyes. I know that she only thought she was doing the best for me and so I can't blame her. I really can't bear seeing her this way and so I pulled her again into a hug."No, Noona. I should be the one who was sorry. I didn't tried my best to find you and Yonggi." I look at our son who was watching us with tears in his eyes."Oh, why are you crying, baby?" I slowly let Noona go and look at my son."Because, Mommy is crying. When mommy is sad, Yonggi is sad, too. And because, appa is crying too." He explained through his sobs. My heart can't help but melt at my son's thoughfulness. I am so proud to have a son that loves his mom. I pulled him into a hug and carressed his back. "Ssshhh! It's okay, Mommy and Daddy are not sad. Sometimes, when people is too happy, they cry too. One day, when you grow older, you will understand." I ruffled his hair as I wiped his tears with the back of my hand."Aigoo, please stop crying. This is not how we should celebrate Miss Sarrah's birthday!" We were startled when the lady helper came out."Mrs. Kim!" Sarrah Noona looked shock as if she really forgot the woman's existence."Okay, let me take Yonggi to his bed. And you can go back to what you were doing earlier, I mean you can celebrate your birthday Miss Sarrah." I heard Noona choked on her saliva and started coughing. I can feel the heat rising to my cheeks as well. Damn! This is embarrassing!I cleared my throat and acted as if I heard nothing, although I know that the colors on my cheeks are still visible. "Thank you Mrs. Kim, but I would like to take our son to bed." I avoided her hands that was supposed to take my son away from me. I saw the corners of her mouth pulled upwards into a half smile as she glance at Sarrah Noona."Oh, okay Mr. Min. Suit yourself. Looks like I am not needed here anymore, so maybe I can go home now Miss.." She is calling my wife Miss? Nope, not on my watch and so I interrupted her."Missis, it's Missis Min Sarrah." I corrected her. Her smile turned into a laugh. My forehead formed a knot. What is so funny?"Oh, I am so sorry." She apologized but I didn't feel any sincerity in her words. I saw her wink to Sarrah Noona before she bid her good bye and took off."I don't like her." I started as I put our sleeping son on his bed. I wasn't ware that he fell asleep on my arms while I was talking to Mrs. Kim. "Who? Mrs. Kim? Why? She is so nice!" Noona defended her as she pulled the blanket over our son and kissed him on his forehead. The gesture put a small smile on my face. I can't believe that I finally foound my family. My body automatically moved closer to Sarrah Noona and pulled her into a hug."Yah! What are you doing? What is our son woke up again?" I heard her hiss on my chest but I still didn't let go. "Shhhh! Don't worry! I will not do anything. Not yet!" I teased her and I felt her hit me on my back."I missed you so much, Noona." "Are you not mad at me?" I heard her ask in a small voice."I was mad of course." I felt her trying to break away but I didn't let her go and instead pulled her closer. "I was mad, because you didn't let me be your husband. I could have protected you and our son, but you didn't let me. You didn't have enough trust and faith in me. I am honestly more hurt and disappointed.""I am really sorry, Min Yoongi. I thought I was helping you. I didn't realize that I just hurt you more." She apologized in a raspy voice. She is crying again, and my heart can't take it anymore. "Shhhhh! Please stop crying. Let's just forget the past and start anew. What is important is we are together again. Let's go back to Seoul, and start a new life as a family." There was suddenly silence. I felt my anxiety building up.I pulled her away to look at her face. "You don't want to go back to Seoul?" I asked even though I am afraid to hear her answer. She looked away from before she answered back with a question."What about your career? What will your fans say? What about my father?" She asked her face full of worries."We can take one problem at a time. I will take care of you and of Yonggi. I will not let anything bad happen to our family. Please Noona, this time please trust me." It took her a minute to respond and I can't believe that those were the longest minute of my life. I felt my heart rate beat faster as beads of sweat formed on my eyebrows. And whe she slowly nodded her head as she look deep into my eyes. I felt the burst of joy that erupted through me in her agreement and I can't help but kiss her full on her lips which shocked her. I can't stop myself from smiling. I can feel the excitement coursing through my veins. I can finally bring my family home. I can't wait for them to meet my parents and brother."First things first, we need to go home as soon as possible because your father wants to see you." I saw the fear and hesitation in her eyes and my hand automatically reached out to hold her hand. "Don't worry, I am here. I promise, I won't leave you." A small smile broke on her beautiful lips and I have never felt so happy seeing that kind of smile from the woman I love. A new chapter of our life will begin soon. I know it won't be easy but knowing that I have my family with me, and that is more that enough tp give me strength.MERRY CHRISTMAS!!!