Sweetest Fear

CHAPTER 35

CHAPTER 35

YOONGI's P.O.V.

I was busy attending to my son when someone called my name. "Yoongi-hyung!" I whirled around and see our members approaching me with a worried face but their eyes were looking at my son curiously. 

"What happened? Are you okay? Is Sarrah Noona okay?" Jin –hyung asked. I turned around and looked at my wife clearly spaced out looking at her father's picture on top of his coffin. My heart ached for her. I know that she is feeling pain and regret in her heart. I wish I could do something to alleviate her pain. "No, she is not okay. But don't worry. I will not leave her. I will take care of her." I answered as I looked at them apologetically. 

"Guys, I am sorry for causing such a scandal to our group. I promise to fix it as soon as possible." I saw them shook their head.

"It's okay, hyung. I know you had your reasons. Take your time. I will take care of it. For now, focus on your family." Namjoon replied with an understanding smile. My heart immediately felt at ease. I know that in this problem I am not alone. I am lucky to have met 6 wonderful brothers in this lifetime.

"Yes, Family comes first." Jimin chimed in. "Appa, who are they?" That question just brought a smile to my face. My little son looked at them one by one with curiousity.

"Wait, is this little cutie your son, hyung?" Taehyung asked excitedly as he tried to pinch his cheek but my son pushed his hand away and hid behind my back. I nodded my head as I brushed his bangs covering half of his face. "Waaaah, he looks jusT like you when you were young, hyung." Jungkook blurted out in awe and I can't help but smile widely. I feel so proud.

"Yonggi, they are your uncles." I bent my knees down to my son's level and pushed him in front as I introduced our members one by one. "Uncle, Jin, Uncle Namjoon, Uncle Hoseok, Uncle Jimin, Uncle Taehyung and Uncle Jungkook." My son diligently bowed his head 90 degrees to each members as a sign of respect and I feel prouder. My wife taught him well. 

"Oh, look at that big smile on hyung's face. It's been such a long time since we see that genuine smile." Hoseok teased. I didn't even realized I was smiling the whole time while looking at my son. I cleared my throat to hide my embarrassment. 

"Hyung, we are going in for a while. We are just going to pay our respect to Sarrah Noona." Namjoon excused themselves and I just nodded my head in understanding. I watch them bow one by one to pay their respect.

"Adeul-ah" My head immediately whipped around to the sound of the voice as I was engulfed in a warm hug. "Eomma." I uttered as I hug her back. "What are you doing here?" I asked in surprise as I saw my older brother behind her back. "We heard the news from Hoseok. Why didn't you tell us?" My mom asked in clear dismay. 

"I'm sorry but I just don't want to bother you-"

"We are your family, you will never be a bother." My brother cut me off as he also gave me a hug.

"Thank you for coming." I said as I bow with all sincerity.

"Hush, now where is my grandchild." Our eyes then turn to my son, hiding behind my back. A loving smile immediately broke into my mother's face as she came closer and held a lollipop in front of her.

"Annyeong, Yonggi. I am your grandma." My mom tried to charm my son, but he didn't budged. "It's okay Yonggi-yah. It's Grandma." My son looked up to me with those chinky cute eyes and I nodded my head for encouragement. Slowly he moved forward and my mother took that opportunity to scoop him into her arms for a tight hug.

"He looks just like you." My mom mouthed while showering my son with kisses. I saw the irritation on my son and so he tried to escape and I can't help but laugh. He was holding out his hand to me asking me to pick him up and my heart feels so warm. Him raising his hand to me means he trust me and so I picked him up and his arms immediately wrapped around my neck as he put his chin on my shoulders. I can't explain the fast beating of my heart. There is happiness and contentment within me that I just can't explain.

"Yoongi, I think your wife needs you." I followed my brother's gaze and saw my wife crying while reading a piece of paper. And my instinct tells me to go to her immediately but what about my son. I don't him to see her mom crying. I don't want her to worry.

"Go, We will take care of Yonggi." My brother encouraged. I put Yoonggi down then I bent down to his level so we could look into each other's eyes.

"Yonggi-yah, go with grandma and samchoon (uncle) for a while, Appa just needs to go to Mommy." I instructed. I saw his hesitation. "I want to go to mommy, too." He answered. I heaved a sigh. This won't be easy. I need to use another method. "Mommy is hungry, can you buy her some hot chocolate and burger? Can you do that for mommy, huh?" I asked nicely. 

It took him a few seconds before he nodded his head in agreement. I sighed in relief. "Eomma, Hyung, please take care of him for a few minutes. I will be right back." They just nodded their head and smiled knowingly. Now, I feel grateful for having my family here right now.

I walked slowly to where my wife is seated and took the empty seat beside her. I saw she was holding a letter probably from her late father. Tears are now silently streaming down her face. My heart hurts looking at her face full of grief. She slowly stood up and walked to her father's coffin. She was blankly staring at his father's picture as she silently cries.

"I'm sorry, I am so sorry Appa." I heard her whisper as she fell on her knees. I don't know what to do to console her. Seeing her cry makes me feel sad. I feel so useless. The only thing I could do at the moment is to make her feel that she is not alone, that I am here for her. I knelt beside her and wrapped my arms around her.

"Cry, just cry Noona, let it all out. I am here. " I softly whispered as I felt a tear fell from my eyes. I hugged her tighter, hoping that it will ease the pain she was feeling. I have no idea how long we stayed in that position until she had calmed down. All I know is that in my heart and soul, I promise to never hurt her because I never want to see her in pain like this ever again. She deserves all the happiness in the world.

I look at my father-in-law's picture and made a promise. I will protect and cherish my family the best that I can. I will love them for all eternity. I hope that my father-in-law knows that so that he can rest in peace. I felt some weight felt on my shoulder and saw that my wife fell asleep. I look at her face soaked with tears. I slowly wiped her tears dry and caressed her face. My heart hurts knowing that since our childhood she had been through a lot. She is one of the strongest woman I have known. Maybe that is why I fell in love with her. During our wedding I made a vow to make her happy, but I wasn't able to do that until now. 

I swear to my father's grave and to the heaven's above, I will do my best to make up for it. I will make her happy for the rest of our life. "Sleep for now, my love. I will take care of everything. I love you. I have loved you then, I love you now and even in the future, I know, I love you still." I kissed her forehead as I let her sleep for now.