Sweetest Fear

CHAPTER 18

CHAPTER 18

I covered my mouth when i realized what I said. I can't believe I confessed my true feelings to Yoongi. I immediately stopped crying as my eyes went wide. I looked away to avoid Min Yoongi's piercing gaze.  I am mentally pulling my hair in frustration. I should have controlled my feelings. I should not have let jealousy take over me. Min Yoongi looked stunned. He was not moving for a few seconds that I thought he became a statue then he bit his lip trying to hide a smile. Ah! He is really so cute when he does that! My heart is now hammering in my chest, how could he make me change emotions so fast?

"What did you say? You love me." He stated confidently while looking at me with a big smile on his lips. I can feel the blush creeping on my cheeks as i shook my head in denial. "Aniyo!" I lied while trying to keep a straight face. "You just misheard me." I grunted as I wiped my tears with the back of my hand. I subtly remove my seat belt and tried to open the door but alas! It is still locked. I need to flee. This is too embarrassing for me. I should not have confessed. This is not what's in my plan. We are supposed to have our divorce soon and what I just said will not help! Argh! Me and my big mouth!

"You just said it. I heard it loud and clear. There is no use in lying. Well, I can't blame you. I am really lovable." I glanced at him and I can see the smirk on his face.  I suddenly felt myself get irritated with his confidence. "Whatever! Believe what you want to believe! Now, let me out! Leave me alone and just go back to your Suran Noona!" I huffed as I crossed my arms across my chest. 

"Why would I go to her when I am already with my wife? Stop being jealous! She is just one of my co-workers okay?!" He explained in a low voice while taking my hand and bringing it in to his lips for a light kiss. I am having butterflies in my stomach with the gesture. This isn't right! I pulled my hand from his grasp and glared at him. I honestly don't know who to be mad at, him or myself for being like this. He sighed and looked at me with sincerity. "Noona, please stop being jealous. You are already married to the one and only Min Yoongi so I really don't understand what you are jealous about." I whipped my head back to him and looked at him in the eye. "I said. I am not jealous!" I repeated my lie hopefully I will believe it myself. Yoongi just sighed in reply before facing the road again.

"Yeah sure, co-workers my b*tt! I miss you a lot!" I muttered the last part mimicking Suran's flirty way earlier to spite him. "And I will repeat it again. I am not jealous! You can guys be together for all I care. Just sign the papers first before you marry her or else you will end up in jail for bigamy!" I ranted. My emotions are really in a turmoil right now. I can feel my sanity leaving me.I saw him close his eyes as he massage his temple. I can sense that he is getting annoyed. Sooner or later I know he will dumped me on the street for being too noisy but wait, isn't that what I wanted? Why am I getting confused with my own feelings?!

"And just to clear things out, I don't love you Min Yoongi!" I muttered while looking at the road in front of us. There was a few moments of silence before Yoongi spoke again. "Look at me and say it again." He dared me and because I am also a daring person I did as I was told. "I looked at him straight in the eye and repeated what I said. "I dont' love you Min Yoongi." I want to applaud myself for being able to say the words without stuttering. 

I saw him clenched his jaw and looked at me with a scornful look. "Yeah sure." He growled before he pulled my head towards him and kissed me full on my lips. I gasped in surprise and he took that moment to invade my mouth. I tried to push him away because I want to save myself from falling deeper but it was futile. At first his kiss was rough and domineering but after a few seconds it became less aggressive and I can feel myself responding. My head is telling me to stop but my body don't want to listen. His kiss became gentle and it sent shivers down my spine. "Sarrah" He whispered my name before he nibbles on my lower lip. Slowly, I closed my eyes and let my feelings take over. I kissed back trying my best to match the intensity of his kiss. I felt him smile on my lips. I reached for the back of his head and pulled him closer as if my life depends on it. Our kiss went deeper and a moan escaped my lips. It's starting to get hot. I felt his hand touch the skin under my shirt and that pulled me back to sanity. I opened my eyes and stopped the kiss.