Queen Clumsy

Chapter 27 ~ I Don't Know why you still Think I want to Talk to you

alec's a dumb thot

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ALEC
Chapter 27 ~ I Don't Know why you still Think I want to Talk to you

It's kinda funny how some people prefer family over everything and everyone else. Yeah sure you spend the most time with them or whatever, but in the end, they can hurt you just as much as anyone else. In fact, they can hurt you more.

It's no surprise at this point that my family is a catastrophe. It's like those stereotypical stories: the dad is a jackass who hurts the mom. Then, either the mom or the dad leaves, allowing the child to hate his father for all his life.

But mine wasn't quite like that.

My family was perfect at one point. We were the family that other people envied. We were beautiful, successful, and most importantly, loving. We were happy, and, at that moment, that was all that mattered.

But then Alexa passed away, and everything went to shit. My mom was diagnosed with depression not much later. All the "problems" and "difficulties" forced my dad away. And me?

I was left alone.

So, I'm sorry that my family isn't my first priority. I'm sorry that I prefer my friends over my family. I'm sorry that my family wasn't there for me when I needed them the most.

And I'm sorry that I don't know how to love.

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I don't know how and why some people walk for fun. Some people take night strolls or even morning walks to "let out some air." Why walk when you can punch something? It takes out anger and stress much easier than walking.

However, the moment I got home from lacrosse practice, I couldn't help but chuck my bag onto the couch and then leave the house. It wasn't until two hours of walking that I could even push down my frustration.

Why was I frustrated?

Because I was angry. Furious. Absolutely livid. To cool my anger, I decided to take a walk like all those cliché people do in movies and books. At some time, I tried to think of why I was so angry, but I couldn't come up with anything reasonable.

That's what lead me to where I am now: frustrated. I walked so far out that I was now approaching the more urban area than the mostly suburb area that I lived in.

When the frustration died down a little bit, I finally noticed how cold and thirsty I was. I was practically shivering, and my throat felt like the Sahara. I took in my surroundings and noticed a cozy cafe just a couple of yards away.