Pain 2: Him (H.S)

Chapter 36

Just a little heads up, this chapter is really short but I promise to update before Monday. I don't usually listen to music when I write but I had "Ghosts " by James Vincent McMorrow and "Heart of Stone" by Iko on replay as I was writing. I really really want you guys to listen to these songs, even if one finishes before the chapter ends, look up the other and continue because you'll feel the emotions more. Also, I'm so sorry for always updating so late, but I promise to work on it. This once a week isn't really working for me either because I hate making you all wait. But anyway, thank you for reading (I didn't want to ruin the end with a end note) and please don't forget to vote/comment. :)

Piano keys play distinctly in the living room as I lie in bed and follow along. He's been playing none stop these passed two days and ever since Louis and Liam decided to suddenly leave, he's been dazed. I thought this was going to make everything better. Wasn't it? Wasn't them leaving supposed to make everything better? He has been so inattentive and caught up in his own thoughts that I hesitate to talk to him because I feel like I'll bother him. He lies awake at night staring at the ceiling just drowning in whatever is bothering him and sits in concentration and silence.

He has been like this for two days. He doesn't say much, just the regular "I love you," and "are you okay," but the only times I've heard him talk were over the phone with Conor and Niall and that was for hours. They all think it's some type of plan, a plot or trap to fool us thinking they've actually given up but as much as it bothers them, it doesn't to me. I haven't felt what I'm feeling now in so long. Months--I haven't felt like this in months! The relief of the discomfort and stress feel absolutely amazing because it's what I've been longing for since the day they all started this.

I walked myself away from the conversations and ignored any type of theory they came up with. Even when he was one the phone, I listened to music to block out his assumptions so that it wouldn't convince me like usual. I know it's all weird and sudden like he said, I know it's strange and suspicious but we've spent our whole relationship fighting them both and now that they're gone, I want to worry about myself, family, and Harry. That's really all who matters; them.

"Alee?" Harry calls from the living causing me to jolt up. I stand from the bed and hurry out the room to him and he's leaning over the marbled counter top in the kitchen. His black sweat pants are low around his waist just the way I love and his shirtless chest is rising and falling with ease. That cut across his stomach is driving me absolutely insane. It's been there for what seems like forever and I'm serious about making an appointment for him. I'm surprised it hasn't gotten an infection yet. He's so absentminded when it comes to himself. "What were you doing?" He asks as I approach him.

"Listening to you play. Why'd you stop?" I wonder as he runs his fingers through the roots of his hair. It's getting longer and longer every day. It's amazing how fast it has been growing.

"Come," He pulls away from the counter and turns to rest his back against it, turning his head back to me with a smile that is beckoning me to come to him. I'm eager for what he has in mind because of how even more distant he has been these last forty eight hours.

I walk in front of him and he wraps his arms around my waist to pull me, pressing my chest against his and he kisses my forehead, "how have you been feeling?" He murmurs rubbing my lower back.

"Great," I smile towards his green eyes that seem to be glossier than they usually are. "You? You've been really quiet lately." I frown.

"I've been thinking." He informs nodding his head, "I'm taking proper precautions in this. Just making sure what they're doing isn't apart of their game."

"Yeah, I know." I brush the long fallen strands of hair away from his face and brush it up towards the rest of it. "But it's been two days. Don't you think they would've told Niall something by now? Or even tried something?"