COWARD
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A coward is something I've always been called and always been known by. Just because I'm easily frightened of things or run away from the things that scare me. Just because I'm not as brave as some people I must be titled a coward. That's not fair.
Some people have their demons, something they are afraid and just can't face by themselves don't get on your high horse and deem someone cowardly just because they can't do what you do, face what you can.
I flinched for the fifth time today as the door slammed closed followed by his yelling.
"PAPYRUS GET YOUR LAZY ASS DOWN HERE!" he demanded.
I hid behind the couch, I most typically did just to avoid him when he did arrive home. I didn't like his fixed harsh glare on me or his scary look and mean words. It's not like I asked to be here.
I looked up and yelped when I saw him staring down at me from the otherwise of the couch.
"WHAT THE HELL ARE YOU DOING BACK HERE?" he glared
I quivered under his gaze unable to say anything and if I didn't he would only get mad.
"I'm here m'lord" a nervous papyrus arrived.
Sans only grunts "Pathetic " and turns away from me. Yet again I was awarded another degrading title.
My lips quivered and I looked over at sans. "I'm not pathetic" I said with a meek voice.
Sans turned around "What was that?" he scoffs and begins to laugh as he crosses his hands with a smug look on his face.
"Ha! If your not pathetic then what are you? Would prefer coward then, it makes no difference to me"
"m'lord..." Papyrus tried to intervene
"Shut up!" sans yells at him.
"I'm not a coward" my voice grew softer as I started to cry.
"Tch, look at that , I don't have to do anything to you, if I look in your general direction your already shaking with tears and crying a god damn river! Your the most pathetic coward I've ever seen!"
I cried even more "I-im not... " my voice died.
"Then look me in my face and tell me that your not" he dared
I refused as I shook.
"I don't see what your so damn afraid of..."
I turned to him slightly and saw the look of hurt on his face that shocked me. He turns away and drags papyrus off with him out the door leaving me to think to myself.
'What did he mean what was I so afraid of, like I didn't have reason.'
He always glared at me and said such harsh things. He would also yell all the time and... I suppose that doesn't make him scary, just mean. Although he yelled he never really yelled at me just spoke loudly but his glaring was always scary like he wanted to hurt me... But sometimes it would be followed by a grumble. I began to think if it more and more I did the more I began to realize.
Had I been thinking about this all wrong? He was mean yes, but he wasn't exactly scary or did anything to try and scare me. I thought maybe I should try to face him directly instead of always hiding from him. But that all just seems impossible.
But what really stayed on my fingers the looking his face. Had I been hurting him all this time by hiding from him? Did he actually wanted to try and be closer to me? I remembered how papyrus told me before... He had trouble making friends. But I thought he was perfectly fine that way, that it was his choice. But now knowing that I probably made him feel lonely only made me feel bad.
I took a deep breath and sat on the couch waiting patiently and awkwardly. 15 minutes later the door opens and Papyrus walks in. He winks at me and heads upstairs. I'm only confused by this.
Sans then enters in with a giant bear in his hands and a blush on his face as he grumbled under his breath.
"Here! This is just to make amends for making you cry" he shoves it to me.
I hold the bear looking at it in at then look at sans who still has the red blush on his cheeks. For the first time I realized how cute he was, he felt so bad about it he decided to get me a gift. It was so thoughtful of him.
I hug the bear tightly and looked sans in the face.
"Sans!"
He was startled by my sudden yell and looks at me.
"W-what is it?"
"thank you! And I'm sorry!"
"huh?" sans was very confused
"I didn't realize that I was hurting you by avoiding you when you just wanted to be friends, I'm sorry for being afraid of you, it's just when you glare at me sometimes it's scary" I apologized
Sans grew flustered "Who gave you the idea that I wanted to be friends with you!?"
"...w-well I mean papyrus said-"
Sans sighs loudly "Of course I don't want to be friends with you"
I began to grow dissapointed, why did I have my hopes up?
"I... Wanted to go on a date with you, but I saw how scared of me you were so,... I started to get upset " he says shyly with red cheeks.
I'm stunned and also blushing. "o-oh"
Our eyes connect and we both quickly look away. I actually never expected things to turn out this way. I could really heart pounding in my chest and butterflies in my stomach.
"Y/n..."
I flinched when he called my name and I hid behind the bear. Never had I felt so self conscious.
I heard sans sigh again and walk away.
"Just forget it, forget everything I said I didn't mean it"
It felt everything died inside of me just then. I felt dissapointed but also I could hear the dissapointment in his voice.
"W-wait, so you don't really like me?" I asked hurt
"Why does that matter, your afraid of me aren't you"
"I-im not, I-i feel S-shy, I mean if y-you asked m-me on a d-d-date I would a-a-a-accept" I was blushing like crazy not able to speak coherently.
Sans hid his face and cleared his throat.
"Well if you insist, I wouldn't mind taking you out on a date... "
I laughed happily "Not so much a coward now am I?"
Sans blush only intensifies as I continue to laugh.
I cold sans hans tenderly. "I'd love to" I smiled sweetly
