'It's been a few weeks since I wrote' the next page said. I had sat down and read again after Bailey had left. I don't want to read it, but I wanted to know the way she thought and what she thought of me...
'It was only a few weeks after Jai and I had met in person and we were not only living together, but also dating. I was supposed to go to London and live there for a while with my parents. It was my brothers fault and I really can't bare leaving Jai. Once I say it, it sounds childish and kind of love sick. Which, even though I didn't want to admit, was true. I am kind of childish and... in love. Yeah, okay I admit it. I'm in love. Except I haven't told him yet, but he has. I want to tell him, I really do. But it'll sound stupid and childish. If I were to die, I guess I kind of would wish Jai to read these. No one else, just him. The only thing keeping me alive right now is him and it hurts. I try not to make these letter things too long. Even though I don't want to admit to anyone... I'm dying. Everyone's dying in a way. Some quicker than others, like me. At one point I'm going to snap and I won't be here anymore. My suicidal thoughts are getting to me, but staying strong is my only priority right now, because of.. well.. Jai.'
I read it in her voice. Imagining her writing it, trying to hold back tears. I want her next to me right now. It was difficult to think that the person that meant absolutely everything to you since the beginning is gone. I wish she hadn't of gone. I wasn't on good terms with anyone right now. The only people I talk to anymore is my Waetforders. As I'm sitting in my thoughts my door opens and it reveals a tall girl. Sarah.
"Hey." She says and I look over at her.
"Hey." I say.
"How are you?" She asks and sits down on my bed. I haven't seen her in a few weeks, but I'm happy she's here now.
"Better." She walks over to me and I hug her.
*
"I only met Celia once, but she was so kind and beautiful." She says as we sit in the backyard eating strawberries.
"Yeah. She was great." I say.
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All I Want - Sequel to Fix You - (Jai Waetford)
फैनफिक्शन'We thought she was dead' He explained as the interviewer listened to my unexplainable story. 'I mean her heart actually stopped. I left the hospital and...' Celia Vidgen. She was in a coma for six months, from a horrible car crash, and the doctor...
