All I Want - Sequel to Fix You - (Jai Waetford)

Chapter 29

Bailey and I both read the next entry in Celia's journal.

It's been exactly 1 year 11 months and 10 days since I last wrote and I couldn't be worse than ever. If anyone ever reads this I just want to say that please tell Jai and my family that I am sorry. I'm so sorry for what I have done and what I might do if you don't stop me. Jai pleaded for me to stay alive in that hospital. I fought, but it was mostly him that made me stay. I was living off machines and then they turned them off, I wasn't waking up after that. The hospital was sure I wasn't waking up, but I did. I woke up and I was happy and saw that Jai was too. Anyway, I'm sorry for what I am about to do to myself after my dance class, I can't bare the thought of leaving Jai. But I wasn't meant to be here on earth. This is legit my suicide note. I can't bare anyone anymore, the bullies and haters mainly. Everyone has their place, my twin sister owns my place now. I just hope Jai moves on after this. I love him... a lot. I'm sorry...."

By the end Bailey had tears formed in her eyes and I was just stunned.

"I miss her." I say.

"I didn't know her all that well, but she was my twin sister and I sort of miss her too." She says.

"I remember the time Celia was going on about how annoying Jack and she wish she could bash him up, it never happened." I say and laugh. Bailey giggles a bit then stares into my eyes. She goes into kiss me, but I face my face away from her.

"No Bailey. Don't." I say.

"Sorry." She says. The rest of the afternoon was spent telling each other stories.

"This is like the good old days." I say.

"Before Celia cane back." Bailey says.

"You can't blame everything on your twin sister." I say and she sighs.

"Yeah. I guess I was kind of a bitch to her and you. I'm sorry." She says and I just stare at her for a moment before looking away from her.

"I'm going to write a song." I say.

"About what?" She asks and I pause before answering.

"Celia."

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