🍑
i was walking down the street and ethan is all i can think about. "what's wrong with me? i can't sleep, think right, and i'm barley even hungry anymore..." i whisper to myself.
"that sounds like a real bad problem"
a voice from behind whispers in my ear. "huh?!" i turn around and ethan is right behind me. too close to me. i take a step back. "oh h-h-hey ethan, what are you doing?" i try my hardest not to blush. "your face is red" ethan places his hand on my cheek making it worse. "boy, you sure are sensitive" he removes his hand.
"well, i asked you a question. you don't live around here, what are you doing?" i keep walking and he speeds up to keep up with my pace. "i came to see my girlfriend"
well, that's a stab in the feels department...
i wince at the thought. "oh, what's her name? maybe i can help you find her"
I told you he was nothing but a heart break waiting to happen.
"I already have" he says.
stab count: 2
"oh. did you have fun?" i smile behind the pain. i have liked ethan for about a year now ad he's been my best friend since i could walk. "eh, not really." he runs his hand through his hair swiftly. "that's too bad" i say and he places his arm on my shoulder. "you're a tiny person" he says and and laughs. "at least i'm not labled the iron giant" i say and he laughs again.
"can i tell you about my girlfriend?" he asks awkwardly
"yeah sure"
stab count: infinity
"well, she has the best smile, and her laugh is like a clear sky after a stormy night, her jokes make me feel some type of emotion but i can't quite put my finger on it...and best part, i get to see her everyday" ethan blushes. i have never seen him this way before.
"you must really like her huh?" i was fighting back tears, but one escaped. "hey, what are you crying for?!" he grabs me shoulders so i was facing him. "are you truly happy with her?!" he looks at me like i was speaking another language. "because if you're happy with her, then i can put my feeling aside, seeing you happy like that makes me feel something and i can't stand it. i might have wanted to be the one making you feel those things but i'm just not good enough!"at this point i broke and tears fell everywhere.
"hey! y/n! snap out of it ok?! i'm talking about you! don't you ever go thinking you're not good enough! you do make me feel that way! i can't sleep right because of you! i hate that when i see you i have to fight back my feelings and it drives me crazy! i love you! so don't hurt yourself over something stupid like that!" he pulls me into a hug.
"y-you were talking about me?" i wipe the tears from my eyes.
stab count: 0
"yes you idiot!" he says and lays his head on mine.
"I feel stupid now, thanks ethan...but i'm glad" i smile, and spend the next few minutes in his arms.
🍑
