"ethan! over here! over here!" i giggled. "morning" he walks towards me. "I'm so glad you came! and you're on time as well!" i smiled. "when did you get here?" he asked me. "an hour ago!" i chuckled. "are you stupid?" he looks at me. "ahahaha~ I'm so happy, i couldnt wait!" i scratched the back of my head. "are your eyes swollen?" he asked. "ah, i was too excited yesterday that i barely slept" i told him.
"so..where are we going?" we started walking. "umm...let me think..is there anywhere you would like to go, ethan?" i asked. "no, not really. I'll go with you wherever you want" he says. "seriously?! yaaay~!" i throw my hand in the air. "waaah, what should we do? go shop or go eat? or should we go to the park over there?" i looked up at him. "I thought about a bunch of stuff to do.." ethan mumbled.
"surely, its this right?" i took out a football from my bag. ethan and i always played football durning our free time. "hey" he passed the football to me. "yea?" i answered. "is this really ok?" he asked. "I just dont understand. this is not different from what we usually do" he says. "its ok" i passed the football back. "as long as I'm with you, ethan..I'm happy doing anything" i smile. "and its more fun as compared to when I'm alone. its better to enjoy things together, right?" i giggle.
this guy is always so thoughtful in weird places...ethan thought. "the ball is behind you!" he says. "ah, got it!" i back up and try to catch it. i look behind me and a dog was right there. "AAAAAHHHH!" i trip and fall back, hitting my head. "idiot!! don't just fall like that!" he ran over. "ouch.." i rubbed my head. "where did you hurt yourself?" he asked as we ran over to me. "did you twist anything? bump your head?"
"here, let me see.." he removed my hand and rubbed my head, checking where i hit my head. "ah..its a bit swollen, but it shouldn't be an issue" he told me. i started blushing so much, i looked like a tomato. "ah..uhm..I'm completely fine" i stuttered. he squeezed my cheeks and faced me to him so we were face to face. "dont you like me touching you?" he asked. "what are you saying?! its not like that!" i shake my head. "then why are you moving away?"
"I'm not moving away, its just..." i trail off. "its just so embarrassing!" i finish. "when the person you like touches you, your heart beats super fast! dont you even understand this?!" i add. "wouldn't you want more if the person you like touches you?" he asks. "that..that depends on the person..I'm not that eager.." i look down. "who's the annoying kid who was hitting on me yesterday?!" ethan squeezes my cheeks a little harder. "if i dont say i like you, then i cant convey the message! especially towards you..." i say.
ethan looks at me for a while then stands up. "shall we eat then?" he asks. "huh?!" i say in shock. "then go shop? i can accompany you for those things.." he says. "whats with you all of a sudden?!" i was shocked. "nothing" he looks down at me. "so? are you coming or not?" he starts walking away. "coming! I'm coming!" i got up and followed him.
damn it..there are many different types of likes, right?...ethan thought. "hamburger please!" ethan and i said in sync. "stop copying me" i said. "you're the one copying me" he said. after eating we went shopping. "do you like it? though it doesnt fit well" i tried on a hat. "then dont wear it!" he said.
AT THE END OF THE DAY
ethan and i were sit on a bench. "time flies by so fast..." i sigh and look down at my feet. "ethan, you've never liked anyone, right?" i asked. "huh? is there any? shut up" he looks away. "what else do you wanna do?" he asked. "huh?" i looked at him. "I dont know any of these things so..just be straight froward and say it. I'll do it if its acceptable" he sighs. "um..so..can we hold hands?" i ask, blushing. he puts his hand over mine and and holds it. i look down and blush even more. "your hand is really warm" he says. he then yawns. "um, ethan?" he looks at me.
"you..you can lay down here, you know" i pat my lap. when i said that he stares at me with a intense stare. "waaaah! sorry! i went overboard! I'm really sorry, please dont be angry!" i apologize. seems like he doesnt like this...I thought. he then rested his head on my shoulder and fell asleep there.
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"you idiot! why did you fall asleep as well?!" we just woke up and realized it was almost midnight. "I felt sleepy and..it was an accident! sorry!" i ran to catch up to him. "its late now!" he says. "since its already like this, lets just walk then" i told him. "ethan, today...is almost over" i look down. "can you..kiss me.." i grab the back of his jacket. "then i would have no regrets. my feelings for you..will also end here. i will try my best to end it. i will make a complete closure! so.."
"I refuse"
my eyes widen at the answer i was given. "yeah...I understand..you wouldn't play along to this extent" i let go of his jacket. "ah, today has already ended!" i looked at the clock beside us and it was midnight. "thank you for coming out with me today. i really am happy" i smiled softly. i turned around but then i suddenly stopped. i then broke down in tears. just then, ethan hugged me from behind. my eyes widen.
"sorry" he said. "huh?" i asked. "sorry..." he apologized again. "aah! please dont apologize like, its making me more sad!" i said. "no.." he simply said. "why are you being so thoughtful now? time has passed already. you dont have to do this, ok? let go stupid!" i tried to push him away. "listen!!" he tightens the hug. "i..want..to.." he trails off. "ex..extend it" he stutters. "extend?" i ask. "extend it" he says again. "does that mean...you'll also go out with me today" i look up at him. "yeah" he blushes. "are you for real?! ah, so tomorrow then?" i ask, excitedly. "yeah" he nods. "after tomorrow too?" i add. "yeah" he say. "a week!" i begin to smile. "a month!" "you are so loud..." he mumbles.
he then pulls me into a kiss. "its forever." my eyes widen. "thats why. dont say that its going to end" i begin crying. "dont cry!" he says. "you cried last night as well, didnt you?" he asked. "that because...because i didnt want to..just end it like this.." i say in between sobs. "then say so. dont force yourself to do the impossible." he wipes my tears away. "didnt you want me to do that?" i sniffed. "thats why i said sorry!" he hugged me again.
"...but why? why did you suddenly change your mind?" i looked up at him. "could it be that you like a bit? ethan, do you like me?" i ask. "didnt i say it?" he mumbles. "you did?!" i said in shock. "I did." he looks down at me. "then say it again" i told him. "how can i say it so many times?!" he looks down at me. "why? if you like someone, then just say it" i said and he begins blushing.
"I'm not the same as you!" he grabs my hand and walks off. "ouch! ouch! ouch!" i follow him. "you're so weird. its so easy for you to hold hands or kiss, but you're so embarrassed to say 'I like you'" i giggle. "be quiet! keep walking!" he says. "you have to say it one day, ethan. if you dont, you would feel annoyed holding it in" i said.
MONDAY
i was laughing and talking to friends. "ah great, what a relief!" one of ethan's friends looks at me. "y/n's completely back to normal. i was a bit worried but it seems that you refused her nicely, ethan" grayson sits next to him. "thats not it." ethan looks at him. "we started going out" they were shocked when they heard it. "wait you.." grayson got up and looked at him. "you didnt do it because it was troublesome, right?" his friend asked. "no, its not like that" ethan sat back. "i...started liking her...a while ago" he blushed. "so i was really happy when she confessed. but i still thought that my 'like' and her 'like' had some difference." he looked down.
"what i couldn't say, she said it so freely. it felt a bit effortless. it didnt feel right" he sighs. "even though i dont dislike it..I would be really furious about it after going out. if its like that, i dont have any confidence that I'd be able to control myself, so i refuse. because i was being very serious. but..." he fiddles with his fingers. "there's nothing wrong with her 'like'" he stands up.
"I now understand what you meant when you said that i should listen to what y/n has to say, grayson" ethan smiles and walks off. "wait-" grayson watches him. ethan came over and we were talking and laughing with all my other friends.
THE END
