No saving me(EDITING)

Dirty Blues.

Inner turmoil.

"No. No. No. No. No. NO. NO. NO. NO. NO."

I look up at my ceiling with my eyes open wide, "NO!" I shout at the top of my lungs.

I listen for people to move around in the living room.. Dining room.. Anywhere, but it seems that nobody is in the house. Thank fucking GOD.

"I don't even know his last name!" I shout at my ceiling.

'but he's so beautiful' My mind whispers to me.

"But Nash said that he's bad news!" I shout back to my mind.

'Nash is also a less hot version of his twin brother, wouldn't you be mad too?'

"I make a good point." I mumble to myself.

When did my inner voice become such a troll?

"Seriously Rae, why are you screaming?" My cousin Kahale walks into my room. *FOR THOSE OF YOU THAT CAN'T READ HIS NAME, ITS KAH-HALL-AYE.*

My eyes snap to my cousin, "I thought that you were gone."

He walks over and inspects himself in the mirror, "Nope, I was just sleeping. Something that you should probably be doing."

"Sorry." I cover my face with my pillow.

Kahale sits at the end of my bed, I remove the pillow from my face to look at him.

Kahale had huge muscles and a gorgeous face. Long, sideswept brunette hair, bright blue eyes... He surely had no problems with the ladies... Long story short, we didn't look like we were related.

Kahale pats my legs from over my blanket, "Stop screaming or I will strangle you." he smiles at me with his perfect white teeth.

He strides out of my room and slams my door loudly.

"Somebody is on their period." I mutter to myself.

"I HEARD THAT." I hear from outside of my door.

I put my pillow over my head again, "Sorry!"

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Sunday night there was a knock on my window, and I so badly wanted it to be Zane.

No matter how much I tried, I could not get this kid out of my head.

I rush off of my bed and go to the window, I open the blinds and who do I see?!

Nash.

Yes, that's right, Nash. Seriously, what a dissapointment.

I open my window, "What do you want?"

"I want to talk to you."

"Why didn't you come to the front door?"

Nash looks at me with wide eyes, "Do you know who your cousin is?" He widens his eyes, even more "That guy kill me with the stroke of his hand."

I shake my head, "Whatever, come in." I turn and lay down on my head face up.

Nash sits down next to me on my bed, "So... I'm sorry for being rude..."

Not taring my eyes away from the ceiling, "It really doesn't matter..."

"But it does matter to me," He lays down next to me and looks up at the ceiling as I do, "I have anger issues... Especially when it comes to my brother."

"He's not that bad." I look at him.

"You don't even know him." Nash shakes his head.

I tear my eyes from him and look back up at the ceiling, "Maybe you're judging him too harshly..."

Nash sits up and looks down at me, "After what he did that girl, you're telling me that I'm judging him to harshly?"

After Zane did what to what girl...

"What are you talking about?" I sit up to look at a pacing Nash.

"Seriously, I'm a much better guy than my brothe-" Nash stops and looks at me firmly, he walks up to where I'm sitting, "What did you just ask me?"

Meekly I scoot slowly away from him, "When Zane did what to what girl?"

"Alexandria didn't tell you?"

I shrug, "She was too busy tangling tongues with superman to tell me anything..." I mumble.

Nash lets out a short burst of laughter and sits next to me again, "Of course you think that Zane is the best guy in the world now!" He hits himself in the head, "You don't even know what a dick he is yet!"

My mind is spinning, "Nash, I'm confused."

Nash shrugs and heads for my window, "Wait, are you seriously going right now?" I walk towards him.

Nash turns and smiles at me, "You don't want me to leave?"

Nash looking at me and smiling like this... I felt dirty... Like this wasn't supposed to be happening.

I wasn't Zane's, not even close. Zane probably hasn't even given me a second thought...

But looking at Nash... The way that his eyes are sparkling as they look into mine, I couldn't help it when I said, "Please stay."

I feel dirty.

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Tisk Tisk Rae. :P Tisk. Tisk.

Picture to the right is Nash!