This Time I'll Make It

App boy (4)

Kat's POV

I'm moaning in Luke's ear while scratching his back as he bites my neck several times.

"Come for me." I order and lets go.

"Kat!.." He moans in my ear as he comes inside me once more.

Being with Luke like this is so amazing. He makes it feel so natural, like this was all meant to be. My first time I felt weird, it was too soon and I knew it but he had tried several times so I just gave in. But with Luke things just feel right. I know we met online and we never saw each other until now. But this feels so right that I didn't even gave it a second thought. A few months ago I was kissing this guy at a party and he asked if I wanted to go somewhere just the two of us, I instantly told him no and made up some lame excuse. With Luke I didn't even need to say yes, he just knew and he was so sure that he just dived right into me and it was so special. I never felt this way before.

He's still laying on top of me. In fact, he's still inside me. My legs are wrapped around his waist and my arms around his neck. I'm caressing the back of his head, playing with his hair while he leaves a trail of soft kisses on my neck and shoulder. I wish we could stay like this forever.

You need to leave right now!

My subconscious warns me. Oh God, she's right, I have to get out of here. Or at least get out from underneath him.

"Would you mind if I took a shower?" I finally speak.

"Of course not, baby."

"Thanks." He tries to kiss me before getting off of me but I turn my face to the side and he kisses my cheek instead.

I get up from the bed and I'm sorry, but it was so worth it. I make my way to the bathroom without saying a word and close the door behind me. I know he knows something is off but he didn't mentioned it and I won't either.

I'm about to turn off the water when he steps inside the shower and puts his arms around my waist from behind.

"Do you mind if I step in?" He asks.

"No, go ahead. I was finished anyway." I let him know.

When I'm getting off the bathtub, he grabs my arm to stop me.

"What's wrong? You got all weird all of a sudden." I knew he would bring it up eventually.

Something about the look on his face makes me want to tell him the truth. I don't want to get hurt but I cannot hurt him, not him.

"The truth is I realized something." I step inside the bathtub again and turn off the water before facing him.

I hold his hands in mine before saying: "I realized that I'm starting to fall for you. And I really don't want to hurt you but I can't let it happen because I'm leaving in a few day and then we'll be miles apart again and we both know how that turned out last time. But this time would be worse because now we have made love and even if we kept in touch, we would need to feel each other and it wouldn't be possible and things would just fall apart eventually." I lay all my cards on the table and wait for him to make his move. Whatever is coming, I'm ready.

"I know how you feel because I'm falling for you too, Kat. That's why I left after kissing you yesterday. I didn't regret it, I just knew right then that I wanted you. And I wanted more than one kiss. I wanted it all, all of you. So I get why you're scared. I don't want to hurt you or get hurt either. But last night I couldn't stop thinking about you, and it was only one kiss. Imagine having to stop speaking to you after what we just did. I know things didn't really work out in the past, but I think they could now if we wanted them to work. I know you're leaving in a few days, but maybe we could try and see what happens. Honestly, I think we'll both get hurt either way so we might as well go for it."