Please excuse my mistakes
I added an Epigraph yesterday, run that up for me😇
This is the longest chapter I ever written so Enjoy 😉
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Have you ever felt lost, as if you just didn't belong in this world. You ever been embarrassed to the point where you wanted to be swolled by a hole in the ground.
Times those feelings by a thousand. Jay was going through it all.
Social media drama, issues with his potential baby daddies, and the unneeded opinions of those who were just being nosey had him feeling depressed.
But he could be blame? No one other than himself.
He's the one who decided to put himself on social media.
He's the one who decided to have unprotected sex with two men. One of which was his best friend and the other a complete stranger.
He tried to stay positive by repeatedly telling himself that everything was going to be okay but in reality it wasn't.
Jay was now a statistic. He was about to bring another blessing into a curse situation.
If Johnathan was the father he wouldn't know what to do. At first he seemed like a cool person but Jay didn't like the people he associated himself with. Johnathan was sloppy.
Jay wasn't ready for a life time commitment just because of a moment of lust.
If East was the father, things would be weird and people would talk. In a perfect world them and the baby could live happily ever after but that's not case.
Jay's mother was the only one who knew of the pregnancy up until the situation was exposed on social media. Both his and East's relatives were blowing up their phones.
Not like it was any of their business. Most of them just wanted a scoop of the drama.
But one person had Jay feelings. East mother, Janice. When she found out she wasn't angry but disappointed.
"You two should've came and told me what was going on. I would never judge you because I don't know the circumstances in which this occurred. I was a teen mother myself. I ain't have nobody to talk to. But you got me. It hurts me that you felt you had to hide this from me. You ain't alone baby. Stop pushing people away. You got your guard up yet your only enemy is yourself." She said.
Those words been haunting him for the past couple of nights. He hurt the lady who treated him as her own.
Overall he felt sorry for his unborn child. He or she would never get to have one of those picture perfect families like those white people in the movies.
Jay didn't want his child to grow up in a broken home but there ain't no happily ever after in the hood.
Jay was currently in school, sitting through the last class of the day.
Why was he there? Cause he needed those credits in order to get out of that hell hole.
The light skinned boy was having a peaceful snooze until he heard a sharp slap on his desk.
