Thunder In the Rain ~ Kane Brown Love Story Sequel

Forever Or Never

*Kane's POV*

For better, for worse.... For better, for worse...

She was the better. I was the worse.

I desperately wanted to fix things. My chest ached. I had been sitting on the stairs for nearly an hour at this point. I debated going into our music room but didn't wanna touch an instrument since falling asleep at the studio had caused this fallout between us. Well, that and the fact that you didn't listen to her.... my conscience got to me.

Doing the worst thing you should do, I pulled out my phone and looked up the topics my publicist had shown me. I scrolled through the pictures and watched the interview over-and-over again, studying Sawyer's face and my actions. I had been so focused on my new songs for my album. I tried to recall the CMA Awards and when I thought it over, I realized just how little of that time I spent with her. That was supposed to be our first big night out, and I blew it.

She looked gorgeous that night. Had I even told her that? Had I really looked at her? I didn't remember her hair being pulled back like that or the way her dress hugged her and stopped mid-thigh. All I remembered was talking with people about future collaborations and doing my performance. 

Getting frustrated with myself, I stood up. I needed to think about something else. I went over to the couch and picked up the balled up blanket. I laid it over the back of the couch, and grabbed Sawyer's empty mug and candy bar wrapper. I rinsed out the mug and threw away the wrapped. As I finished, I leaded back against the island, crossing my arms. Did I even text her that night to see if she made it to our room?

I pulled out my phone, scrolling through my messages until I saw Sawyer's name. She was so far down the list. I hadn't even texted her. I shook my head, feeling angry with myself. I shoved my phone in my pocket, running for the stairs, taking them two at a time until I was at the top of the landing. I raced down the hall but hesitated at our bedroom door.

Taking a breath, I entered quietly, looking around the room. She wasn't in the bed but the bathroom door was closed. Closing the door behind me, I walked over to the bed, sitting at the foot of it. The bathroom door swung open and she looked at me for a moment. She sat back against the headboard of the bed, pulling her legs up and crossing them while she covered them with the blankets.

*Sawyer's POV*

I stared down at my hands as I looked over my fingernails, trying not to look up at Kane.

"I didn't listen." Kane said

I shook my head, "You did a lot more than that."

He shifted closer to me, "I know. Can you tell me everythin' because -"

"You know but I gotta explain?" I cut him off, rolling my eyes

We were both quiet for a while. I wouldn't look up. I shook my head as hot tears stung my eyes. I gritted my teeth, willing them not to fall. He looked down. I knew I was being spiteful but he had hurt me so bad. I felt sick from the anger I was feeling.

"I deserved that." Kane whispered

"No you didn't!" I yelled, feeling horrible for lashing out at him. He just wanted answers.

"You didn't help me out of the car. You didn't even look at me the whole night! You spent most of it with your friends! You sent me back to the hotel alone!" By now, I was crying

"You said that it was ok to stay." Kane whispered and I rolled my eyes again, "Sorry. I'm listenin'"

"You spent the night draggin' me around or not even talkin' to me or checkin' on me! We have been married over a month, Kane! A month! An' most of that you've been busy workin' in the studio! An' the one night we were supposed to go out together, you never showed up! No call, just didn't show up to date night!" I yelled through tears, Kane looking more than shocked

"An' at the awards were a joke. You wouldn't listen to anythin' I had to say an' when it was really important you kept pushin' it off until here we are! Days later an' instead of stayin' home with me, you run off to the studio an' stay out all night, not answering my calls or texts! I called your mother an' you didn't answer her!" I yelled, "One month.... even your fans noticed...."

I was so upset, with tears streaming down my face, that I hiccuped and gasped for air between sobs. I furiously wiped at my face, unable to see anything through my blurred vision. I felt the bed sink in front of me. Kane grabbed my wrists, but I continued to fight him through my tears.

"Sawyer, you gotta calm down. You gotta breathe." Kane said

*Kane's POV*

I had never seen Sawyer this hysterical. After putting up a fight, she let me pull her close. Her shoulders shook less as her sobs quieted and slowed. Her hair covered her face from my view as her head rested on my shoulder. She sniffled several times as I rubbed her back. I shook my head as the weight of it all hit me. I leaned my cheek against the side of her head.

"I am so sorry, Sawyer. I'm sorry for not helpin' you out of the car, for our date, for makin' you leave the awards alone, for not checkin' on you, an' I'm sorry for not makin' more time with you." I apologized

"Are you gonna fix it?" Sawyer sniffled.

"I'd like to fix it." I said

Sawyer pulled away and grabbed a Kleenex, blowing her nose, before leaning back against the headboard. Her eyes were closed and a little tremble or two would shake her shoulders every-so-often. I waited for her, resting my hands on her kneecaps, squeezing and rubbing them in what I hoped felt soothing. 

"We can sit down an' plan out time for us. An' I'll spend more time here at home so you won't be alone for most of the day." I offered, trying to think of as many solutions as possible.

A small smile graced Sawyer's lips, eyes closed and head still back as she shook her head, letting out a breathy laugh and mumbled something about being not being alone.

" We can find lots of things to do here -" I started

"Kane." Sawyer opened her eyes and sat up, looking at me. "That's not what I meant."

I looked at her for a moment, "I didn't mean stayin' just in the house. We can still go places an' do things. We'll just -" I was cut off

Sawyer shook her head and leaned forward, placing her hands over mine, bringing them to a stop. I sat for a long moment, only able to blink at her.

"What?" I asked with a crack in my voice as I felt my heart sink.

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AHHHHH!!!! Is Kane going to be able to fix his marriage now? Will she give him the chance?

Thank you for reading! Please don't hate me! Everything is going to be ok. I've made that promise and intend to keep it. Just making Kane work for it a little more.

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