Not Mine but His Mate (Completed)

Chapter 19: Alpha 🐾

~Hazel's POV~

What Dom said the other night kept playing in my head. He was scared of me. I kind of knew what it meant, but it hits differently actually hearing it come out of his mouth. If any, my fears are more physical. His fears were more emotionally and mentally rooted. And I am the cause of it.

The other night I say?
Yes, I said the other night.
No, I didn't leave the next day like I'd planned. How could I when my little button was sore? I couldn't leave in that condition. So my departure was in hold for a few more days.

But I wasn't complaining. That was the best loving I've ever had and to be honest, I sort of meant more than me than I expected. My regret is that I couldn't handle him for long, like I wanted. But nonetheless here I am, sitting in my thoughts.

"What are you thinking?"

There he was, standing in the doorway looking like a whole dinner!

I smiled and blushed, "Nothing just, just thinking about the other night."

He looked concerned, "I said I was sorry for not being gentle enough."

I chuckled, "No, you were absolutely perfect. I enjoyed every hour of it."

Then he blushed.

"I would however like to take a walk. It's been almost four days since I actually took a walk outside."

"You sure you're okay? You said you were still sore."

"Yes, I'm a little sore, I'm not crippled. I'll be fine. I just want to take a walk and think about things."

His genuine closed lipped smile made my heart sink. Wait, what? The hell am I saying? See, this is why I need to think.
Where the hell is your head, Hazel?

"No problem honey, I'll be sure to listen out for you. If you are in the woods and I'm no longer able to hear you or feel you, just press onto the lioness necklace I gave you."

I looked down at the necklace I kept around my neck remembering that this was the other half of his necklace.

"Just press onto it once and I'll come running."

I lifted from the bed, slowly walked over to my mate and kissed him as a response. Soon after I began my walk. It was a beautiful night. Very beautiful. I dreamt of this place often, whether it was beautiful with Dominic or a nightmare with Leander.

The Alpha. Leander.

Why did I dream of him? Why do I dream of him? Though he isn't my mate, every time he's around I literally feel an uncontrollable attraction toward him. It's unexplainable, barely controllable and I felt horrible about it. Was this normal?

How could it be? The first time meeting him--well, his Lion form, he was ready to murder me if I weren't his mate. I fought like hell to stay alive and was ready to keep fighting as long as I could until I was out of there.

But he didn't murder me.
He didn't even try to hurt me.
He murdered everyone else in that cage. Every woman that went in with me, didn't make it out.
Only me.

Instead, his Lion form just stared at me. Hell, all his Lion and human form did was stare at me. His mated to another. Surely this feeling of being in a trance when I'm around him shouldn't be normal. How the hell did all of this s**t work when it came to him anyway? Since he's the Alpha, it seems like all the rules doesn't really apply to him not Beta. How the f**k did that work?

Let's go find out shall we?

I made the long walk to Eila Winder. Surely she would have been tired of seeing me by now. But she always made it a point to tell me how important I was when it came to the current events, whatever that meant. I mean yes, I was destined to meet Dominic--I guess. I'm his mate so that was fate, I guess. But what did I have to do with anything else? Especially at a time like this where at any minute a war could break out between the Lienthíans and the Zeebríans.