Always and Forever

28 . Beauty and the Beast

                  WORD COUNT: 710

Hayat's pov:

It was a week since that incident took place , but life was not back to normal , the loudest house in our colony turned into the silent one . Silence often consumed us since that day . I think Rafan needs some more time to come out from it . Aaliya was worrying so much about him . His condition would be much worse if Romaisa is not with him . She is the only one who can make him smile during these days , during the dark days of his life .

I am praying for Rafan's well being on one side and on the other side I am praying for the person who killed my mom . Yeah , I don't know who it is but I know how cruel he must be . He had committed an unforgivable crime and If I hold a grudge against him , then there will be no difference between us . May allah forgive him for all the crimes he had committed. My mom was such a sweet lady from all the stories I have heard from people around me . He had killed such a kind and genuine heart . If he gets punished for it , it will be so painful for sure . As a doctor , more as a human , I don't want him to suffer. May allah swt shower his mercy towards him .

It is wierd to tell this , but amidst all these chaos, I couldn't forget Hamza , how could I forget him and his proposal . My mind kept on thinking about him and my eyes kept on searching for him. It was more than eight days since I met him the last time . I expected him to come to my doorstep , speak with rafan , convince him and ask for my hand in marriage. But nothing like that happened ,

It was like magic ,like he got some power to become invisible or he must be stalking me or he must be checking me on whether I miss him or not . I should not think the worst possibilities about his sudden disappearance , so I was thinking of the above fictional possibilities and of course it is real that "fiction is better than reality".

But for how long can I keep on living in my own fictional world, I have to think of all the real possibilities, " maybe he doesn't like me or he was not really that deep into the idea of love after marriage, or would he be heartbroken due to my rejection ?".
But truth to be told , what I did was not rejection , I just told him to speak with my brother . It was like I told him indirectly to ask for my hand in marriage .

He must be ill or something like that , or else he would have shown up for sure . " Hayat don't be so desperate" . I scolded myself . Mr.mad is making me go mad on him .....

Hamza's pov :

When I changed for the better, life repeated the past , it usually happens .our past has a habit of coming back, especially when we have moved on .It took away all my hope . It was painful to know that I am the sole reason for Hayat's loss . She deserved to have a mother by her side while growing up . She deserved all her love . But I took it all away in a single gunshot . Her brother would have told her everything and she would be hating me by now. I deserve it , but I will not be able to bear her hatred .

I am longing for her love , I can't bear her hate . I want her by my side , I want her to console me , I know I am being so selfish, but I want her to forgive me for what I have done . I would have preferred revenge over forgiveness if I were in her place , but I want her to forgive me and accept me .

How will I face my Hayat now ? , will she slap me or will she hurt me with her words ? I can bear all her anger , but what if she ignores me , I can't bear her silence . Will those piercing blue eyes look at me with fear and hatred from now on ? Will those eyes never twinkle when they notice me at a distance ?

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I know this chapter is not good enough because it was written in a hurry , but dear readers don't ignore that star there .

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